found myself lying on the floor not a foot away from that horrible thing
that had so lately been a man. I feared him as much dead as alive, and,
staggering to my feet, I fled from the room. Oh, the darkness, the
frightful darkness which confronted me everywhere! In my terror of it
I rushed hither and thither, leaving the electric light shining in my
wake. I felt I must know, that I must be able to see, that he, who would
never stir again, was not still following me. Stumbling up stairs in my
haste, I locked myself into my bedroom. There I tried to think, but all
I could do was to crouch, trembling, behind the door, listening for I
knew not what. Several times I thought I heard footsteps stealing softly
up the stairs.
"At last, the day dawned and brought with it comparative calm. I was
now able to consider my position. It was, indeed, a desperate one.
What should I do? Whom could I appeal to? My mother? Another helpless
woman--never! Then Mr. Norman occurred to me. I felt I could rely on
him. He would save me if any one could. I decided to go to him as soon
as possible. I knew that I must be most careful not to do anything
which might arouse suspicion. I, therefore, made up my mind not to
leave the house before half-past seven at the earliest. I could then be
supposed to be going out to breakfast. The hours crept wearily by. I
watched the hot, angry sun rise superbly above the horizon, and fancied
that it glared contemptuously down on my ruined life. To make matters
worse, my watch had stopped, and I had to guess at the time by the
various signs of reawakening which I could observe in the street beneath
me. At last I decided that I might safely venture forth. Burning with
impatience to be gone, I turned towards the door. Suddenly I remembered
that my hat still lay in the room below. I started back, trembling in
every limb. Never, never should I have the courage to enter there alone.
Then I thought of the alternative. Summoning the police--the awful
publicity, a prison cell and perhaps finally--no, no, I couldn't face
that. Anything rather than that. No one will ever know how I felt as I
slowly unlocked my door. My teeth chattered notwithstanding the heat,
and half-fainting with terror I staggered down-stairs. Everywhere the
lights still glowed feebly--sickly reminders of the horrors of the
night. I don't remember how I got into the drawing-room, but the
scene that greeted my eyes there can never be erased from my memory.
The blazing August sun shone fiercely down on the disordered room,
mercilessly disclosing the havoc which the recent struggle had wrought.
In the midst of this confusion, that ghastly, silent object lay, gaping
at the new day. His sightless eyes seemed to stare reproachfully at me.
I turned quickly away. This was no time for weakness. If I indulged my
fears I should be unable to accomplish what I had to do. Fixing my eyes
on the thing I was in search of, I walked steadily past the corpse, but,
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