“A WRITER who would describe things that he has not seen with his
own eyes is a feeble rhapsodist; his characters are unreal, and his
productions will never touch the hearts of his readers!” Amen! My
friend Otto put his glass down on the table with such vehemence that
the red wine in it spattered on the table-cloth. I am very shy by
nature; people who talk loud and set down their glass energetically,
looking at me at the same time, as much as to say, “Any objections?”
always awe me. That is the reason my friend Otto awed me. We sat
opposite at the table in the Italian wine-room; while he was speaking
he looked firmly at me; there was no doubt of it, he counted me in with
these blameworthy authors. Our other friends who sat at table with us
gazed at me in silence; it was evident that I was expected to say a
weighty word in self-defence. I myself felt it incumbent upon me,--but
unfortunately nothing appropriate occurred to me. After a lengthy pause
I mildly remarked, “Quite true, one should dip down into the fulness
of human life.” My friend Otto laughed scornfully into his glass, our
friends gave me a look of pity--I had undoubtedly made a fool of myself.
At the same time, the words of my friend Otto would never have made
such an impression upon me if my conscience had not troubled me. A
plan was ripening within me for a great social novel, delineating the
life of the lower classes in Berlin. Realism--that was my programme.
In spirit I saw my likeness in all the illustrated papers; behind my
name I read, “The German Zola,” in a parenthesis. I had not yet fully
decided upon the contents of the novel; but so much was sure, the hero
should be a second-class cab-driver,--if that didn’t take, I didn’t
know what would.
[Illustration: “KEPT ME WAITING AT THE DOOR WHILE HE WAS AMUSING
HIMSELF WITH HIS ADORED.”]
As I was walking home, I was tortured with tormenting doubts called
forth by the words of my friend. “So you would delineate a second-class
cab-driver?” I said to myself. “What do you know about a second-class
cab-driver? That in summer he wears a coat trimmed with galloons, and
a cocked hat, and in winter a mantle, high boots lined with straw,
and a fur cap--everybody knows that. But have you ever listened to
the conversation with which at the stopping-places he makes time pass
for himself and his colleagues? Have you ever followed him into the
gin-shops where he refreshes himself with a glass of half-and-half and
a sandwich? Do you know aught about his likes and dislikes? Or of the
mutual relation between him and his horse? In a word, have you any
knowledge of the inner life of a second-class cab-driver? Be honest
with yourself, you have none; and here you are going to write a social
novel about him! Well I never!” The last word I said half-audibly to
myself while I was opening the street-door in a very ill humour.
I did not sleep well that night. I was perpetually pondering over the
inner life of the second-class cab-driver.
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