The room next to mine was almost dark. They had closed the shutters.
Through the double curtains made out of some thin material I saw the
window streaked with shining bars, like the grating in front of a fire.
In the torrid silence of the house, in the large slumber it enclosed,
bursts of laughter mounted and broke, voices died away, as they had the
day before and as they always would.
From out of these remoter sounds emerged the distinct sound of
footsteps, coming nearer and nearer. I propped myself up against the
wall and looked. The door of the Room opened, as if pushed in by the
flood of light that streamed through it, and two tiny shadows appeared,
engulfed in the brightness.
They acted as though they were being pursued. They hesitated on the
threshold, the doorway making a frame around those little creatures.
And then they entered.
The door closed. The Room was now alive. I scrutinised the newcomers.
I saw them indistinctly through the dark red and green spots dancing in
front of my eyes, which had been dazzled by the flood of light. A
little boy and a little girl, twelve or thirteen years old.
They sat down on the sofa, and looked at each other in silence. Their
faces were almost alike.
. . . . .
The boy murmured:
"You see, Hélène, there is no one here."
And a hand pointed to the uncovered bed, and to the empty table and
empty clothes-racks--the careful denudation of unoccupied rooms.
Then the same hand began to tremble like a leaf. I heard the beating
of my heart. The voices whispered:
"We are alone. They did not see us."
"This is about the first time we've ever been alone together."
"Yet we have always known each other."
A little laugh.
They seemed to need solitude, the first step to a mystery toward which
they were travelling together. They had fled from the others. They
had created for themselves the forbidden solitude. But you could
clearly tell that now that they had found solitude, they did not know
what else to look for.
. . . . .
Then I heard one of them stammer and say sadly, with almost a sob:
"We love each other dearly."
Then a tender phrase rose breathlessly, groping for words, timidly,
like a bird just learning to fly:
"I'd like to love you more."
To see them thus bent toward each other, in the warm shadow, which
bathed them and veiled the childishness of their features, you would
have thought them two lovers meeting.
Two lovers! That was their dream, though they did not yet know what
love meant.
One of them had said "the first time." It was the time that they felt
they were alone, although these two cousins had been living close
together.
No doubt it was the first time that the two had sought to leave
friendship and childhood behind them. It was the first time that
desire had come to surprise and trouble two hearts, which until now had
slept.
. . . . .
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