And yet, in spite of all, does it watch over everything from out its
invisible heaven. It warns and loves, it admires, attracts, repels. At
every fresh event does it rise to the surface, where it lingers till it
be thrust down again, being looked upon as wearisome and insane. It
wanders to and fro, like Cassandra at the gates of the Atrides. It is
ever giving utterance to words of shadowy truth, but there are none to
listen. When we raise our eyes it yearns for a ray of sun or star, that
it may weave into a thought, or, haply, an impulse, which shall be
unconscious and very pure. And if our eyes bring it nothing, still will
it know how to turn its pitiful disillusion into something ineffable,
that it will conceal even till its death.
When we love, how eagerly does it drink in the light from behind the
closed door--keen with expectation, it yet wastes not a minute, and the
light that steals through the apertures becomes beauty and truth to the
soul. But if the door open not (and how many lives are there wherein it
does open?) it will go back into its prison, and its regret will
perhaps be a loftier verity that shall never be seen, for we are now in
the region of transformations whereof none may speak; and though nothing
born this side of the door can be lost, yet does it never mingle with
our life....
I said just now that the soul changed into beauty the little things we
gave to it. It would even seem, the more we think of it, that the soul
has no other reason for existence, and that all its activity is consumed
in amassing, at the depths of us, a treasure of indescribable beauty.
Might not everything naturally turn into beauty, were we not unceasingly
interrupting the arduous labors of our soul? Does not evil itself become
precious so soon as it has gathered therefrom the deep lying diamond of
repentance? The acts of injustice whereof you have been guilty, the
tears you have caused to flow, will not these end too by becoming so
much radiance and love in your soul? Have you ever cast your eyes into
this kingdom of purifying flame that is within you?
Perhaps a great wrong may have been done you to-day, the act itself
being mean and disheartening, the mode of action of the basest, and
ugliness wrapped you round as your tears fell. But let some years
elapse, then give one look into your soul, and tell me whether, beneath
the recollection of that act, you see not something that is already
purer than thought; an indescribable, unnameable force that has nought
in common with the forces of this world; a mysterious inexhaustible
spring of the other life, whereat you may drink for the rest of your
days.
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