The International Monthly, Volume 2, No. 1, December, 1850Various
History
The International Monthly, Volume 2, No. 1, December, 1850
Various
Art, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals; Science -- History -- Periodicals
This was beyond him. Yet strange! the same characteristics did not
surprise nor shock him in her mother--never had surprised or shocked
him; indeed he had rather loved her for those qualities, so unlike his
own. Perhaps it was that he thought it strange, his child should, in any
mood, be so unlike himself; or perhaps it was the contrast between the
two sides of the same character that moved his wonder when he saw it in
his child. He might forget that her mother was her parent as well as
himself; and that she had an inheritance from each.
In his thoughtful, considering, theoretical way, he determined
studiously to seek a remedy for what he considered the defect in his
child--to cultivate with all the zeal and perseverance of paternal
affection, supported by his own force of character, those qualities
which were most like his own--those, in short, which were the least
womanly. But nature would not be baffled. You may divert her to a
certain degree; but you cannot turn her aside from her course
altogether.
He found that he could not--by any means which his heart would let him
employ--conquer what he called the frivolity of the child. Frivolity!
Heaven save us! There were times when she showed no frivolity, but, on
the contrary, a depth and intensity far, far beyond her years. Indeed,
the ordinary current of her mind was calm and thoughtful. It was but
when a breeze rippled it that it sparkled on the surface. Her father,
too, saw that this was so; that the wild gayety was but occasional. But
still it surprised and pained him--perhaps the more because it was
occasional. It seemed to his eyes an anomaly in her nature. He would
have had her altogether like himself. He could not conceive any one
possessing so much of his own character, having room in heart and brain
for aught else. It was a subject of constant wonder to him; of
speculation, of anxious thought.
He often asked himself if this was the only anomaly in his child--if
there were not other traits, yet undiscovered, as discrepant as this
light volatility with her general character: and he puzzled himself
sorely.
Still he pursued her education upon his own principles; taught her many
things which women rarely learned in those days; imbued her mind with
thoughts and feelings of his own; and often thought, when a season of
peculiar gravity fell upon her, that he made progress in rendering her
character all that he could wish it. This impression never lasted long,
however; for sooner or later the bird-like spirit within her found the
cage door open, and fluttered forth upon some gay excursion, leaving all
his dreams vanished and his wishes disappointed.
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