The International Monthly, Volume 5, No. 4, April, 1852Various
History
The International Monthly, Volume 5, No. 4, April, 1852
Various
Art, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals; Science -- History -- Periodicals
These thoughts rose like morning light on his soul, as he stood gazing,
thoughtfully, upon her; whilst she, now that the enthusiasm, which had
been called forth by the expression of her own bright faith had died
away, had yielded to her womanly timidity, and stood half shy, half
embarrassed, not knowing how to take leave of the companion she had so
strangely encountered. He saw this, and, with a ready courtesy, opened
the door for her, and bade her good night, thanking her gently for the
sweet words of comfort she had spoken. She expressed a hope once more
that they should meet again, and so vanished from his sight. The white
figure passing away into the shadows, like some fair dream into the
darkness of a deeper sleep. He remained standing on the spot where she
left him, clasping his hands tightly on his breast. "Meet again!" he
repeated thoughtfully, echoing the words she had uttered. "I will not
desire it; I will not seek it: surely it were the greatest peril that
ever has crossed my path. How have I labored for peace these many years,
and have attained it only by stripping my life of every hope and wish
connected with this world. I have so veiled my eyes to its allurements,
from which I am for ever exiled, that all the living things within it
have become to me as moving shadows in the twilight; whilst my own soul
has been bathed in the sunlight of an eternal hope; but if the smile of
these sweet eyes came falling on my heart again--if the spirit that
looked through them be, indeed, as beautiful as I believe it--if, day
by day, I saw the outward loveliness, and felt the inward beauty,
infinitely fairer, it could not fail, but I should grow to love her.
I--I--the deformed outcast! Oh! could my worst enemy--could even he who
hates the very ground on which I walk, desire for me a deeper curse than
that I should bring upon myself, if ever I made room in this my soul for
human love. It must not be; I can and will avoid her. I will believe
that I have slept and woke again; and this night shall be to me but as
one in which I have dreamt a brighter dream than usual."
He resumed his habitual composure as these thoughts passed through his
mind; the resolute calm, which was the habitual expression of his face,
returned to it, and quietly he left that old hall where the first scene
in the drama of Lilias Randolph's life had been enacted.
She soon was lying in a tranquil slumber--the deep sleep of an innocent
heart that is altogether at rest; but through all her dreams that night,
there went a voice whose echo was to haunt her soul for evermore.
V. A MEETING FOR THE DISSECTION OF SOULS.
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