Female friendship -- Fiction; London (England) -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Widows -- Fiction
He smiled bitterly at her mistake, and fixed his eyes on her as he
asked:--
'Could you change a man, if you gave yourself to him? Could you drive
out his devil, and make a new man of him? Could you give him a new life,
a new heart, a new character?'
'I should have no such hopes. My eyes would be quite open.' Her thoughts
were on Beaufort Chance.
'No, but couldn't you?' he urged, with a wistful persistence. 'If you
knew the worst of him and would still look for something good--something
you could love and could use to make the rest better? Couldn't you make
him cease being what he hated being? Couldn't you have a power greater
than the power of the enemy in him? If you loved him, I mean.'
'How could I love him?' she asked wonderingly.
'If he loved you?'
'What does such a man mean by love?' she murmured scornfully.
'I wonder if you could do anything like that,' he went on. 'Women have,
I suppose. Could you?'
'Oh, don't talk about the thing. I hope I may have courage to throw it
aside.'
He started a little. 'Ah, you mean---- No, I was thinking of something
else.'
'And how could such a woman as I am make any man better?' She smiled in
a faint ridicule of the idea; but she ceased to think of leaving him,
and sat down by the table. For the moment he seemed to pay little
attention to where she was or what she did; he spoke to her indeed, but
his air was absent and his eyes aloof.
'Because, if the woman couldn't, if it turned out that she couldn't, the
last state would be worse than the first. Murder added to _felo de se_!
There's that to consider.' Now he returned to her in an active
consciousness of her presence. 'Suppose you loved a man who had one
great--well, one great devil in him? Could you love a man with a devil
in him?'
There was a touch of humour hardly won in his voice. Trix responded to
it.
'With a thousand, if he was a man after all!'
'Ah, yes, I daresay. But with one--one immense fellow--a fellow who had
sat on him and flattened him for years? Could you fight the fellow and
beat him?'
Trix thought. 'I think I might have perhaps, before--before I got a
devil too, you know.'
'Say he was a swindler--could you keep him straight? Say he was
cruel--could you make him kind?' He paused an instant. 'Suppose he was a
churl--could you open his heart?'
'All that would be very, very hard, even for a good woman,' said Trix
Trevalla. 'And you know that in a case something like those I failed
before.'
'Because, if you couldn't, it would be hell to you, and worse hell to
him.'
'Yes,' murmured Trix. 'That would be it exactly.'
'But if you could----' He walked to the window and looked out. 'It would
be something like pulling down the other side of the Inn and giving the
sun fair play,' said he.
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