Even while she was stammering, shrilly, the furious finality, he caught
her, swaying, in his arms. It was an hour before she could speak
coherently of the happenings of the last twenty-four hours; she had to
be warmed and fed and calmed. And it was curious how the lover in him
and the physician in him alternated in that hour; he had been instant
with the soothing commonplace of help,--her wet clothes, her chilled
body, her hunger, were his first concern. "I know you are hungry," he
said, cheerfully; but his hands shook as he put food before her. When
he drew her chair up to the fire, and kneeling down, took off her wet
shoes, he held her slender, tired feet in his hands and chafed them
gently; but suddenly laid them against his breast, warming them,
murmuring over them with a sobbing breath, as though he felt the
weariness of the little feet, plodding, plodding, plodding through the
rain to find him. The next minute he was the doctor, ordering her with
smiling words to lie back in her chair and rest; then looking at her
with a groan.
When at last she was coherent again, she began that pitiful confession,
and he listened; at first walking up and down; then coming nearer;
sitting beside her; then kneeling; then lifting her and holding her
against his breast. When, relaxing in his arms like a tired child, she
ended, almost in a whisper, with her timid plea to be allowed to stay
until morning, the tears dropped down his face.
"Until morning?" he said, with a laugh that broke into a sob--"until
death!"
Long before this his first uneasiness, at the situation--for her
sake,--had disappeared. The acquired uneasinesses of convention vanish
before the primal realities. The long-banked fire had glowed, then
broken into flames that consumed such chaff as "propriety." As he held
her in his arms after that whispered and rambling story of despair, he
trembled all over. For Elizabeth there had never been a single moment
of conventional consciousness; she was solemnly unaware of everything
but the fact that they were together for this last moment. When he said
"until death," she lifted her head and looked at him.
"Yes," she said, "_until death_."
Something in her broken whisper touched him like ice. He was suddenly
rigid. "Elizabeth, where did you mean to go to-morrow morning?" She
made no answer, but he felt that she was alert. "Elizabeth! Tell me!
what do you mean?" His loud and terrified command made her quiver; she
was bewildered by the unexpectedness of his suspicion, but too dulled
and stunned to evade it. David, with his ear close to her lips, raised
his head. "Elizabeth, don't you understand? Dear, this is life, not
death, for us both."
She drew away from him with a long sigh, struggling up feebly out of
his arms and groping for her chair; she shook her head, smiling
faintly. "I'm sorry you guessed. No, I can't go on living. There's no
use talking about it, David. I can't."
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