The door closed; on one side of it was the mother, exhausted almost to
unconsciousness, yet elate, remembering no more the anguish for joy of
what had been born out of it. On the other side these two, still
ignorant--as the new-born always are--of the future to which that
travail had pledged them. They stood together in the narrow upper hall
and their pitiful eyes met in silence. Then David took her in his arms
and held her for a long moment. Then he kissed her. She whispered,
"Good-by, David." But he was speechless. He went with her to her own
door, left her without a word, and went down-stairs.
In the clamorous emptiness of the living-room he looked about him;
noticed that the table-cover was still crumpled from his mother's hands
and smoothed it automatically; then he sat down. He had the sensation,
spiritually, that a man might have physically whose face had been
violently and repeatedly slapped. The swiftness of the confounding
experiences of the last nine hours made him actually dizzy. His
thoughts rushed to one thing, then to another. Elizabeth? No, no; he
could not think of her yet. His mother? No, he could not think of her,
either. It occurred to him that he was cold, and getting up abruptly,
he went to the fireplace, and kicked the charred sticks of driftwood
together over a graying bed of ashes. Then he heard a chair pushed back
overhead and a soft, tired step, and he wondered vaguely if his
mother's room was comfortable. Reaching for the bellows, he knelt down
and blew the reluctant embers into a faint glow; when a hesitant
flicker of flame caught the half-burned logs he got on his feet and
stood, his fingers on the mantelpiece, his forehead on the back of his
hand, watching the fire catch and crackle into cheerful warmth. He
stood there for a long time. Suddenly his cheek grew rigid: some man,
some _beast_, had--my God! wronged Materna! It was the first really
clear thought; instantly some other thought must have sprung up to meet
it, for he said, under his breath, "No, because I didn't mean . . . it
is different with us; quite different!" The thought, whatever it was,
must have persisted, for it stung him into restless movement. He began
to walk about; once or twice he stumbled over a footstool, that his
eyes, looking blindly at the floor, apparently did not see. Once he
stood stock-still, the blood surging in his ears, his face darkly red.
But his mind was ruthlessly clear. He was remembering; he was putting
two and two together. She was a widow; he knew that. Her marriage had
been unhappy; he knew that. There had been a man--he dimly remembered a
man. He had not thought of him for twenty years! . . . "Damn him,"
David said, and the tears stood in his eyes. Then again that thought
must have come to him, for he said to himself, violently, "But I _love_
Elizabeth, it is different with me!" Perhaps that persistent inner
voice said, "In what way?" for he said again, "Entirely different! It
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