is the only way to make him divorce her so we can be married." Again he
stood still and stared blindly at the floor. That a man could live who
would be base enough to take advantage of--_Materna!_ Between rage and
pity, and confusion he almost forgot Elizabeth, until suddenly the
whirl of his thoughts was pierced by the poignant realization that his
outcry of dismay at his mother's confession had practically told
Elizabeth that he was willing to let her do what he found unthinkable
in his mother. His whole body winced with mortification. It was the
first prick of the sword of shame--that sword of the Lord! Even while
he reddened to his forehead the sword-thrust came again in a flash of
memory. It was only a single sentence; neither argument nor entreaty
nor remonstrance; merely the statement of a fact: "_you did not love
her enough to accept her money._" At the time those ironical words were
spoken they had scarcely any meaning to him, and what meaning they had
was instantly extinguished by anger. Now abruptly they reverberated in
his ears. He forgot his mother; he forgot the "beast," who was, after
all, only the same kind of a beast that he was himself. "You, who could
not accept a girl's money could take her good name; could urge her to a
course which in your mother overwhelms you with horror; could ask her
to give you that which ranks a man who accepted it from your mother as
a 'beast.'" David had never felt shame before; he had known
mortification, and regret, too, to a greater or less degree; and
certainly he had known remorse; he had experienced the futile rage of a
man who realizes that he has made a fool of himself; these things he
had known, as every man nearly thirty years old must know them.
Especially and cruelly he had known them when he understood the effect
of the reasoning egotism of his letter upon Elizabeth. But the
beneficent agony of shame he had never known until this moment.
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