Adventure stories; Fools and jesters -- Fiction; France -- History -- Medieval period, 987-1515 -- Fiction; Love stories
He saw too great passivity of mind in Oswald. Though in a measure he
recognized its excellence, his own spirit was a-tingle for greater
action. The man’s quiet certainty of the woman’s existence was at once
an anodyne and an irritant to him. While Oswald’s belief quickened his
own belief, he yet saw something lukewarm in his lack of action. This
Oswald guessed at, rather by intuition than by actual spoken word from
Peregrine. For his part, he saw a certain weakness in Peregrine’s
constant expectancy. He watched him walking alert in the forest, his
eyes roving from side to side.
“I have told you,” he said once quietly, “that effort on your part is
useless. She will come at her own time.”
“Truly you say so,” returned Peregrine, “and at the first I had
confidence in your assurance. Now, I know not fully how to make my
meaning clear; but to my thinking she bids me still seek her; awaits a
further effort on my part.”
Oswald smiled. “There imagination has you in thrall. On your own showing
you have pursued her long without avail. Rest in her spirit which you
know around you, and await sight of her quietly as I do. Your constant
expectancy of her coming brings disquietude to your mind.”
Reasonable enough argument, and yet one which Peregrine could not bring
himself fully to accept.
“Look at the matter dispassionately,” said Oswald. “You dreamed the
existence of this woman. Knowing not whether the dream were truth or
reality, you pursued her for over two years. The pursuit brought with it
disappointment, and worse. Now I tell you of a certainty your dream was
true, and show you the means by which the truth shall become fact to
you. In seeking her, in your constant watching for her, you drive her
from you. I know not why this is so; nevertheless I know it to be true.”
Peregrine was silent. Here was apparent certainty presented to him on
the one hand; as the pull against it was his own inner conviction, which
he had yet more than once proved illusion, so it seemed. For the time he
let the matter be; came again to rest in the strength of his
comradeship, and the sweetness of Nature round him.
So the days passed. March came with strong clean winds blowing through
the forest, with daffodils tossing golden heads by brook-sides, a very
wealth of gladness. With her passing came quieter April bringing
sunshine and rain, and the scent of growing things in the forest. The
birds mated and sang; the whole place was alive and buoyant.
* * * * *
One night Peregrine awakened suddenly. At the first waking he fancied
Oswald to have called to him, but his quiet regular breathing showed him
sleeping. Peregrine raised himself on his elbow and looked around.
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