Nathan started convulsively. His usually placid features were strangely
agitated. "The truth!" he hissed; "and you remain in my house, you false
wife?"
She looked him in the face with flashing eyes.
"Nathan!" she cried, "I swear by my dead mother that he touched my hand
to-day for the first time."
He gave a short laugh.
"What if I believe you?" he said. "Shall we divide you between us? Shall
I possess you, and he have your love? Are you not mine, body and soul?
and if you could not be altogether mine, why did you become my wife?"
She stepped close up to him, and said, with a despairing gesture, and a
sharp ring in her voice: "Do not be so hard, Nathan. I have been a true
wife to you; but when you ask why I married you, I reply, that my wishes
were never consulted."
Her words seemed to strike him, for he could not answer, and there was a
long silence.
She buried her face in the sofa-cushions.
At last he said, "Go--we will talk of this to-morrow."
She left the room.
He bolted the door and resumed his restless pacing up and down. The old
servant knocked at the door--she had brought the supper-tray, but he
dismissed her at once. She went away grumbling, and he heard her
afterward saying to the cook: "God knows what is the matter! The master
has locked himself into the parlor, and the mistress is in her bedroom.
Neither of them will have any supper."
A hot flush of shame mounted quickly to Nathan's face.
"The servants suspect something already," he thought, "and soon all the
world will wonder what has happened. Old Jutta is right; God alone knows
what misery has fallen on my house, and God alone can help, for I know
not what to do."
He threw himself down on the sofa, and thought it all over again, but he
could not keep still, and soon started up and began to walk up and down
the room again.
"How foolish it was of me to say that God alone could help!" he thought.
"God can not be expected to work miracles for our individual needs. What
can God do but let him die, or me?--that would solve the difficulty."
He pressed his burning brow on the window-pane, and stared out into the
darkness. "I possessed a treasure, and I did not know its value until
another, who was wiser than I, came and took it from me.
Perhaps--perhaps I deserve it....
"Deserve it!" he repeated. "No, no, she is my wife, and whoever takes
her from me is a robber and a coward....
"He is a coward!... He, who always used to be such a good,
straightforward man. I can scarcely believe that he could have been so
wicked.... It must have been her fault--her fault alone.
"But oh, is a wife like other property, as I have always thought? Is she
no more than any other chattel, such as an ornament or a house? Has she
not a will like every other human being? And has that will ever been
consulted?...
"That was the sin, and now we are suffering from its consequences.
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