7) It came into my head with remarkable clearness that in order to always feel good, it is necessary always to think of others, especially when you speak with some one. 8) The movement of life, the broadening of a separate being gives time. If there would be no movement, no enlarging of love, then there would be no time; as to space, it is the representation of other beings. If there were no other beings, there would be no space. (All nonsense, unthought). 9) Women are deprived of a moral sense for a motor. They haven’t got this sail spread and therefore it does not carry. _Feb. 18, Nicholskoe. If I live._ _Feb. 18. Nicholskoe._ Forty-five years ago I was in battle.[180] I feel a great sinking in energy. I am very weak, cannot work. But is it not possible to live unceasingly before God, doing His work in proportion to His strength. I shall try. Help me, Lord. I shall take up the letters. Here demands are made, and it is possible to fulfil His work. _Evening._ Indisposed. Apathy, weakness. Am not taking up the essay,[181] wrote letters. Just now a letter from Biriukov. I answered it. _February 19. Nicholskoe._ I am just as apathetic, but am not worried. Wrote letters. Wrote to every one. I am going to bed, it is past twelve. _To-day, Feb. 20, Nicholskoe._ Seven o’clock in the evening. I still feel just as badly; constipation and heart-burn. I fell asleep in the morning. Then, not trying to work, I took a walk. Extreme weakness. My soul is calm, only it is a bore that I am unable to work. The house is full of people. ... Yesterday I wrote many letters. I walked and thought: There is no greater cause for error and confusion of ideas, the most unexpected ones, and inexplicable in any other way, than the recognition of authorities, i.e., the infallible truthfulness or beauty of certain persons, of books or of works of art. M. Arnold[182] was a thousand times right when he said that the business of criticism lies in detaching the good from the bad, from all that has been written and done, and mainly the bad from that which is recognised as splendid, and the good from that which is recognised as bad, or is not recognised at all. The most striking instance of this error and its terrible consequences, holding back for ages the forward movement of Christian mankind, is the authority of the Holy Scriptures and the Gospels. How many of the most unexpected and remarkable absurdities, sometimes necessary for its own justification, sometimes not necessary for anything, are said and written in the text of the Holy Scriptures.... The same thing happens in the Greek Tragedies, in Vergil, Shakespeare, Goethe, Bach, Beethoven, Raphael and in the new authorities. _Perhaps I omitted the 21st. To-day, perhaps the 22nd. February, Saturday. Nicholskoe._