Yesterday I did not work. I read through the first draft on art--pretty good. I went for Yushkova’s[183] dress. It was a nice trip. In the evening they spoke about Art and then I heard the brothers Konius[184] who arrived.... To-day I am a little better in my health, I went on skiis and felt weak at heart and uneasy when I went far. It is evening now. I feel like writing letters. I thought for _The Appeal_ when I looked at the numberless sons of N. in their overcoats: He is bringing them up, “making” men of the world of them. What for? You will say: you live as you do for the sake of the children. What for? Why bring up another generation of the same cheated slaves, not knowing why they live, and living such a joyless life? _Feb. 23. Nicholskoe. If I live._ _February 23, Nicholskoe._ To-day I wrote willingly and eagerly all morning and it seems to me I advanced on the essay on art. Then I took a walk before dinner. There is still a pile of people. No serious talk. Yesterday there was music.... To-day an amateur theatrical. Tania and Michail Adamovich played very well.[185] It is now evening. The day has passed almost without heart-burn. _February 24. Nicholskoe._ To-day I arose apathetic and fell asleep again right after luncheon. After one, I went to meet the riders. Came home, dined. Am struggling successfully with heart-burn. Went for a walk in the evening. Read and am reading Aristotle (Bénard) on æsthetics. Very important. Thought during these days: 1) Thought; why is it impossible to even speak to some people ... about truth and good--so far are they away from it. This is so, because they are surrounded by such a thick layer of temptations that they have become impenetrable. They are unable to struggle with sin, because they do not see the sin for the temptations. In this lies the principal danger and all the horror of temptations. 2) They say to me when I condemn religious propaganda: You also are preaching. No, I do not preach--mainly because I have nothing to preach. Even to atheists I am not going to preach God (if I preached, I erred). I only draw conclusions from what people accept, pointing out the contradictions which are enclosed in what they accept, and which they do not notice.