Their days were spent in the big room on the second floor, amidst a
litter of sea-weed, bottles, jars, and instruments, which Lazare had
never had the energy to clear away. The sea-weed was falling to pieces
and the bottles were growing discoloured, while the instruments were
getting damaged by neglect. But in all this disorder Pauline and Lazare
were alone and warm. Frequently did the December rains beat upon the
slates of the roof from morning till night, while the west wind roared
organ-like through the crevices of the woodwork. Whole weeks passed
without sight of the sun, and there was nothing for the eye to rest
upon save the grey sea--a grey immensity, in which the earth seemed to
be melting away. Pauline found amusement for her unoccupied hours in
classifying a collection of _floridæ_ which she had gathered during
the previous spring. At first Lazare, with his utter _ennui_, had just
watched her as she mounted the delicate forms, whose soft blues and
reds showed like water-colours; but afterwards, growing weary of his
idleness, and forgetting his theory of inaction, he unearthed the piano
from the litter of damaged appliances and dirty bottles beneath which
it was buried. A week later his passion for music had resumed all its
old sway over him. It was a revival of the artistic sense which lay
beneath his failure as a scientist and a manufacturer. One morning,
as he was playing his March of Death, the idea of the great symphony
on Grief, which he had once thought of composing, excited him again.
All that had been already written, except the March, was worthless, he
thought; and the March was the only portion he would retain. But what
a magnificent subject it was--what a task to perform! And how he might
embody all his philosophy in it! He would commence with the creation of
life by the selfish caprice of some superior power. Then would come the
delusiveness of happiness and the mockery of life in striking passages,
an embrace of lovers, a massacre of soldiers, and the death of a God
upon the cross. Throughout everything a cry of woe should ascend; the
groans of humankind should mount upwards to the skies, until came
the final hymn of deliverance, a hymn whose melting sweetness should
express all the happiness that came of universal annihilation.
The next morning he set enthusiastically to work, jingling, strumming
on the piano, and covering sheets of paper with black bars. As the
instrument was in a more feeble condition than ever, he sang the notes
himself in a droning manner. Never had any of his previous fads taken
such strong hold of him. He was so completely absorbed that he forgot
his meals, and all but deafened poor Pauline, who, in her desire to
please him, pretended that she liked it all very much, and neatly
recopied portions of the score. This time he was quite sure that he had
a masterpiece in hand.
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