Adventure stories; France -- History -- Louis XI, 1461-1483 -- Fiction; Paris (France) -- Fiction
But before a man can thus cleanse his soul it is fitting he should
pray, and so I knelt, but not before the great altar. No! its hard
brilliance and gorgeous extravagance of this world's passing splendours
repelled me. What had a poor crushed soul in common with such proud
display? The God who loved these flaring lights, silver lamps that
swung by silver chains, gilt candlesticks of many branches all ablaze,
who took complacent pleasure in such ostentation of gold vessels,
broidered draperies, fretted carvings, gems that flashed and gems that
glowed, how could He stoop to a worm of the earth? True, the pure,
pale Face of the suffering Christ looked out from it all, but looked
out as if to ask, What have I, the Man of Sorrows acquainted with
grief, Who had not where to lay His head, what have I to do with all
this arrogance of flaunted wealth? Either I am the Son of God in My
heaven of heavens, and what to Me are your tinsel glories! or I am the
Son of Man working out salvation in anguish and alone, sweating, as it
were, great drops of blood, no man ministering to Me, and what have I
to do with all this splendour! The God of the high altar is either the
God of the very great or the very poor; of the man who says in his
pride, I, too, am a god, a god to myself, a god upon earth for the
people's worship, and so we are a-kin, thou and I! Or else it is for
those ignorants who find the incense of heaven in the smell of the
unsnuffed guttering candles; for myself, I could not pray there. I
found instead a small remote chapel, where a single rushlight trembled
before a darkened shrine, faint and small like a soul facing the
unknowable; shrinking, and yet persistent because of the Love unseen
that watched and waited, yearning to be gracious. Nor was I alone. A
woman knelt upon the altar step, her head bowed forward till it rested
on the wooden rail.
Seeing her rapt worship I kept back, and in the quiet of the little
sanctuary lost myself. The world, with its drone of life, its careless
callous tread, was behind my back, and I forgot everything but that
Solignac was in ashes, Babette murdered, and that God had prospered me
on my way to retribution. What He begins He finishes, and not a
thousand Jan Meerts, no, nor Louis of France, could turn back the hand
of His justice.
But how diverse are His attributes, how infinite, how inscrutable, is
the greatness of His powers. As I, through His justice cried for
vengeance, another kneeling at the same footstool sought peace through
mercy.
"Not the King's will, but Thine, O Lord!"
It was the voice of Mademoiselle, and as I heard it, my heart leaped!
Our paths had come together through no seeking of mine, and there was
now no question of disloyalty to Monsieur de Commines. Nor, I
remembered with satisfaction, being a frail man, was I any longer in
rags.
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