Calmly, piously, without a shade of sorrow for the past or of
solicitude for the future, save that mysterious and yet natural anxiety
which must haunt every mind, however well prepared to endure its final
separation from the body, as the hour of dissolution approaches, did
she expect the morning. This anxiety and this alone was blended with
the various feelings which coursed through the soul of Mary during this
the last night of her existence.
It was in such a frame of mind that Mary, in the solitude of that last
earthly night, diverting her attention entirely from the terrible shock
she was about to undergo on the morrow, thought upon her native land,
still dear though still ungrateful, a prey to the fierce contentions
of her own factious offspring--of her son, torn at the earliest dawn
of his affections from the arms of a mother, nurtured among those who
would teach him to eradicate every warmer recollection--to pluck forth,
as if it were an offending eye, every lingering tenderness for that
being, who, amid all her sins and all her sorrows, had never ceased to
love him with an entire and perfect love. There is, in truth, something
more evidently divine, partaking more nearly of that which we believe
to be the very essence of Divinity, in a mother’s love, than in any
other pang or passion--for every passion, how sweet soever it may be,
has something of a pang mingled with it--in the human soul. All other
love is liable to diminution, to change, or to extinction; all other
love may be alienated by the neglect, chilled by the coldness, frozen
to the core by the worthlessness, of the object once beloved. All
other affections are influenced by a thousand trivial circumstances of
time and place: absence may weaken their influence, time obscure their
vividness, and, above all, custom may rob them of their value. But on
the love of a mother--commencing as it does before the object of her
solicitude possesses form or being; springing from agony and sorrow;
ripening in anxiety and care, and reaping too often the bitter harvest
of ingratitude--all incidental causes, all external influences, are
powerless and vain. Time but excites her admiration, but increases her
solicitude, but redoubles her affections. Absence but causes her to
dwell with a more engrossing memory on him from whom her heart is never
absent. Custom but hallows the sentiment to which nature has given
birth. Neglect and coldness but cause her to strain every nerve to
merit more and more the poor return of filial love--the solitary aim of
her existence, if heartlessly denied to her. Nay, worthlessness itself
but binds her more closely to him whom the hard world has cast aside,
to find a refuge in the only bosom which will not perceive his errors
or credit his utter destitution.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account