She went on musingly: “Ellermore means happiness, but the ‘works’ mean
life. Life we must have, till--till it is taken away,” she added, with a
shiver; “but happiness! oh yes, it will come back. I am not so young or
so ignorant as not to know that it will come back, and for all the young
ones, soon, soon! There will be you and me will think a little longer,
Charley, and me longest of all, but not for ever. But at present we are
not happy. We will escape something--the pitying, and the sympathy, and
the inquiries--at least we shall escape all that. I am sure my father
would think so. But how we are to tell him I don’t know,” she cried
again. “He is quite cheerful; he is like a child; but if we take him
home, and it is not Ellermore, he will know.”
They had both dried their tears as they contemplated this difficulty,
which neither knew how to deal with. I had been naturally left outside
of this discussion; but to hear them thus debating, consulting each
other, arguing on the main thing to be done, was more than I could bear.
I could not but remember the happy house, with all its advantages and
homely wealth--the boats on the loch, the grouse on the hills, the
luxury and abundance. That door had never been shut upon the stranger or
the poor. And they were so entirely to the manner born, seated in their
old house among their native hills, it seemed impossible to conceive of
them in another place in other circumstances. This made it all the more
wonderful to perceive that neither of them hesitated a moment. The
thought of how to tell their father, how to keep him in his present
state of cheerful unconsciousness, moved them indeed with a pang of
bewilderment; but no irresolution, no clinging to what they liked best,
no outcry against the cruel fate which deprived them of their home, was
in the thoughts of either. There may be people to whom this choice would
seem want of feeling. To me the quiet heroism was far more touching than
any heroics. I knew the wrench it would be, and I respected them all the
more that neither of them made anything of this, or even paused over it,
as if the sacrifice were too much. I went home, leaving them together,
with a pang in my heart of powerlessness to help them. I wonder whether
the very rich are ever worked upon by those burning desires to help, to
step forth and act as the providence of the suffering, which so often
flame up in the bosoms of the comparatively poor. I had enough for my
own wants, and desired riches little, but when I thought of stepping in
to their aid, of becoming their surety and helper, my heart burned
within me. I thought almost hungrily of an inheritance which was coming
to me, which up to this moment I had been very well content to wait for.
I wonder, I repeat, if such longings never come to the very rich who
could indulge them with ease and without any personal struggle. Perhaps
not; or one would hear something of it. As it is, the Quixotes of
private life are seldom millionaires.
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