The Land of Darkness: Along with Some Further Chapters in the Experiences of the Little PilgrimOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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The Land of Darkness: Along with Some Further Chapters in the Experiences of the Little Pilgrim
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
Future life -- Fiction; Purgatory -- Fiction
When the door was opened, I saw a number of people within, who
seemed to crowd to the door as if seeking to get out. But this was not
at all what was intended. My second companion dragged the lame man
forward, and pushed him in with so much violence that I could see him
fall forward on his face on the floor. Then the other locked the door,
and we proceeded on our way. It was not till some time later that I
understood why.
In the meantime I was hurried on, meeting a great many people who took
no notice of me, to a central building in the middle of the town, where
I was brought before an official attended by clerks, with great books
spread out before him. Here I was questioned as to my name and my
antecedents, and the time of my arrival, then dismissed with a nod to
one of my conductors. He led me back again down the street, took me into
one of the tall great houses, opened the door of a room which was
numbered, and left me there without a word. I cannot convey to any one
the bewildered consternation with which I felt myself deposited here;
and as the steps of my conductor died away in the long corridor, I sat
down, and looking myself in the face, as it were, tried to make out what
it was that had happened to me. The room was small and bare. There was
but one thing hung upon the undecorated walls, and that was a long list
of printed regulations which I had not the courage for the moment to
look at. The light was indifferent, though the room was high up, and the
street from the window looked far away below. I cannot tell how long I
sat there thinking, and yet it could scarcely be called thought. I asked
myself over and over again, Where am I? is it a prison? am I shut in, to
leave this enclosure no more? what am I to do? how is the time to pass?
I shut my eyes for a moment and tried to realise all that had happened
to me; but nothing save a whirl through my head of disconnected thoughts
seemed possible, and some force was upon me to open my eyes again, to
see the blank room, the dull light, the vacancy round me in which there
was nothing to interest the mind, nothing to please the eye, a blank
wherever I turned. Presently there came upon me a burning regret for
everything I had left, for the noisy town with all its tumults and
cruelties, for the dark valley with all its dangers. Everything seemed
bearable, almost agreeable, in comparison with this. I seemed to have
been brought here to make acquaintance once more with myself, to learn
over again what manner of man I was. Needless knowledge, acquaintance
unnecessary, unhappy! for what was there in me to make me to myself a
good companion? Never, I knew, could I separate myself from that eternal
consciousness; but it was cruelty to force the contemplation upon me.
All blank, blank, around me, a prison! And was this to last for ever?
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