The Land of Darkness: Along with Some Further Chapters in the Experiences of the Little Pilgrim — John Shaqi
The Land of Darkness: Along with Some Further Chapters in the Experiences of the Little PilgrimOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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The Land of Darkness: Along with Some Further Chapters in the Experiences of the Little Pilgrim
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
Future life -- Fiction; Purgatory -- Fiction
continual appeal of the suffering. In the streets of the city, as I now
reflected, quiet reigned. I had even made comparisons on my first
entrance, in the moment of pleasant anticipation which came over me, of
the happy stillness here, with the horror and tumult of that place of
unrule which I had left.
When my thoughts reached this point I was answered by the voice of some
one on a level with myself, lying helpless like me on the floor of the
lazar-house. ‘They have taken their precautions,’ he said; ‘if they will
not endure the sight of suffering, how should they hear the sound of it?
Every cry is silenced there.’
‘I wish they could be silenced within too,’ I cried savagely; ‘I would
make them dumb had I the power.’
‘The spirit of the place is in you,’ said the other voice.
‘And not in you?’ I said, raising my head, though every movement was
agony; but this pretence of superiority was more than I could bear.
The other made no answer for a moment: then he said faintly, ‘If it is
so, it is but for greater misery.’
And then his voice died away, and the hubbub of beating, and crying, and
cursing, and groaning filled all the echoes. They cried, but no one
listened to them. They thundered on the door, but in vain. They
aggravated all their pangs in that mad struggle to get free. After a
while my companion, whoever he was, spoke again.
‘They would rather,’ he said, ‘lie on the roadside to be kicked and
trodden on, as we have seen; though to see that made you miserable.’
‘Made me miserable! You mock me,’ I said. ‘Why should a man be miserable
save for suffering of his own?’
‘You thought otherwise once,’ my neighbour said.
And then I remembered the wretch in the corner of the wall in the other
town, who had cursed me for pitying him. I cursed myself now for that
folly. Pity him! was he not better off than I? ‘I wish,’ I cried, ‘that
I could crush them into nothing, and be rid of this infernal noise they
make!’
‘The spirit of the place has entered into you,’ said that voice.
I raised my arm to strike him; but my hand fell on the stone floor
instead, and sent a jar of new pain all through my battered frame. And
then I mastered my rage, and lay still, for I knew there was no way but
this of recovering my strength,--the strength with which, when I got it
back, I would annihilate that reproachful voice, and crush the life out
of those groaning fools, whose cries and impotent struggles I could not
endure. And we lay a long time without moving, with always that tumult
raging in our ears. At last there came into my mind a longing to hear
spoken words again. I said, ‘Are you still there?’
‘I shall be here,’ he said, ‘till I am able to begin again.’
‘To begin! Is there here, then, either beginning or ending? Go on: speak
to me: it makes me a little forget my pain.’
‘I have a fire in my heart,’ he said; ‘I must begin and begin--till
perhaps I find the way.’
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