Romney threw back his head and laughed at the upper arch of tiles, his
arms held out. It was the laugh of a man who stands on the rim of the
last ditch.... He had certainly sifted to the bottom of things. The
_John Dividend_ was the last of many ships. He had made the grand
traverse of the Asiatic coast from the Yellow Sea to the Bay of Bengal
and doubled back to Shanghai. This drink-thing was the great weakness
he had uncovered. Three days after her steamer had gone down the river,
he had fallen into the low eddies of it—a cheap thing, but he felt
cheap. He saw that he had always been intoxicated somehow. A turn of a
card and he might have become a saint instead of a drunkard. Mother
China had intoxicated him first; then the woman. It was all a matter of
temperament. Having lost the levitation of cleanness and strength, he
had permitted the mother-force of gravitation to take her certain
course. From Longstruth’s at Hankow he had swirled into the great drift
of the water-fronts—deserters, remittance-men, hangovers from every form
of human failure. He had spent everything he had within reach—a large
amount of money. He had learned the value of money when his pockets
flattened to a few thin coins. There was a large slice of his fortune
left in Peking, but it was so placed that he would have to go there to
get it. He was on the way back now. In fact the _John Dividend_ would
have taken him almost there—she was booked for Tientsin—but had been too
stagnant and stenchy in her bowels. The fact is he would never have
reached Manila and the deck of the _John Dividend_ except for this new
something, superlatively fine in his physique. Altogether he had seen a
lot of life with the integument off—and had expected little more of the
late days than to be found dead somewhere....
The scent of the fountain-place had a certain whipping magic about it.
It seemed to cleanse away some weakness.
It made Moira Kelvin draw close in memory, but there was a queer up-pull
to it now, as if she said:
"_You have played enough, Sir Romney. Give it up—you’re too
clean-blooded to die soiled. You don’t want me. You’ve forgotten for
days at a time what you are trying to kill yourself for. If that next
daybreak had found me in your arms—you would have hated me, and I would
have had for myself something infinitely worse than hatred. You were
big that night to let me go. Nature will not let a man as big as that
pass out without doing his work and finding his own. If you want
sin—pray, sin magnificently._"
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account