She turned quickly to the door and opened it. Romney saw a great bear
of a man, half sprawled over a wooden table, the candle sputtering near
his head in the fresh pressure from the open door, the sharp fume of
brandy issuing. The body seemed swollen, neck and ears, shoulders,
abdomen, legs—all swollen, but the top of the head. That was small and
sparsely covered with hair, the candle-light upon it. The lips were
swollen and parted.
"That is what I found," she said.
*3*
Presently she shut the door of the forward room with quick hand—her face
remorseful and tender.
"I don’t know why I did that. It was hateful to do that—and before you.
I don’t know why I did it."
"You had to," he said. "I listened so intently, you had to tell me.
You could not tell one more ready to understand and help you."
"But he is not always like that—not always like to-night and that night.
There have been many days ... oh, but he is not what I expected—so
different from when he left Odessa. But very kind, always kind.
To-morrow morning he will be kind enough. Only such a desolation comes
over me out of his soul. It is like the desert.... And nothing I can
do changes him. I have ceased trying to change him, ceased trying,
ceased hoping—"
"Some men can’t stand the desert," Romney said. "One must bring a
certain integration of force, a certain resistance, to stand it here.
The Gobi saps the vitality of the weak; it often takes the sanity of men
who do not drink.... Your brother does not know what comes over him.
He feels himself going insane, that’s all. A man drinks, when he feels
that, if he’s the kind that turns to drink.... You had to tell me.
It’s lucky I came. I wouldn’t have failed to come—not for worlds.
Perhaps I came to take you away—"
... Her fineness appeared only to one who had the grace to see. Romney,
surprised at his own words, sensed vast reaches in her, depths that
defied him, something of the newness of new Russia and hues of beauty
ancient as Asia. Her eyes had widened, making her face the more
fragile. Just then he saw the rising moon through a low pane behind
her. It was in the full and still red from the horizon. The glass was
poor, distorting the circle so that it was like a bulging grain bag....
She had not smiled, nor taken exception to his words. There was no
coquetry in her. She waited for him to explain.
"You have seen all the terror and the oppression of the desert. You
cannot have failed to see something of the rest," he suggested.
She paused and he added, "Something that has to do perhaps with that old
Buddhist holy man you spoke of so kindly."
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