"Oh, I cannot let you live another hour with the thought that I was
afraid of what they would think—of your being here. That is a lie. You
must have known I care nothing for that. I thought that sending you
away would make you start on your mission—I used that. It has almost
killed us.... Come in.... Since you will not go—come in to the house
with me."
She brought the candle to his face. "Oh, you poor—poor—"
She seemed not to know whether to say _boy_ or _man_—"how you have
suffered—and for me! ... I do not understand it. It seemed weak for you
to stay. It has been my greatest anguish that I caused you to stay....
And yet, there is something deathless about it—something I do not
understand."
*10*
There was something about it also that Romney did not understand. Nor
could he speak. He watched her in the light of the single candle.
Again and again, the face of flesh that he knew, faded into a kind of
dream before the intentness of his regard. It was she, and yet another
face might have been painted upon it without changing the real identity.
And all about it was a vapoury white, different from lamp-light. It was
like a visitation from the other side. Out of it her words came to him,
but he did not answer at once. The fact is Romney had banked his fires
of late in such a heavy and draughtless fashion, that they were in
danger of going out.
And queerly enough now, certain hardly remembered passages of strangers
through Nadiram recurred to mind: wild nomads from the Khingan Mountains
driving their scanty flocks to the sparse pastures of the south;
Tartars, the true descendants of Genghis Kahn; Buddhist holy men gaunt
from their days of fasting in the solitudes; once a skeleton troop of
Cossacks that stole in on a mysterious errand and vanished; and the
merchants, the everlasting wigglebrows—all strangers on the long road
through the days of wasting heat and nights of drawing cold.
... She came to him because he did not speak. There seemed a movement
around the room above her head; and the face in the centre of the faint
white ray was at his knees. He felt vaguely that if he spoke, the face
and all would vanish.
"There is something greater than I knew about your waiting," she
whispered. "It belongs to the future ... as all that I thought I knew
belongs to the past.... I see it differently ... not that you should
stay for my sake, but that you felt a woman’s need and remained....
Won’t you speak?"
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