End of the world -- Fiction; Epidemics -- Fiction; Science fiction; Twenty-first century -- Fiction
“Yet I love you. Yet, and for ever, would I contribute all I possess to
your welfare. On account of a tattling world; for the sake of my—of our
child, I would remain by you, Raymond, share your fortunes, partake
your counsel. Shall it be thus? We are no longer lovers; nor can I call
myself a friend to any; since, lost as I am, I have no thought to spare
from my own wretched, engrossing self. But it will please me to see you
each day! to listen to the public voice praising you; to keep up your
paternal love for our girl; to hear your voice; to know that I am near
you, though you are no longer mine.
“If you wish to break the chains that bind us, say the word, and it
shall be done—I will take all the blame on myself, of harshness or
unkindness, in the world’s eye.
“Yet, as I have said, I should be best pleased, at least for the
present, to live under the same roof with you. When the fever of my
young life is spent; when placid age shall tame the vulture that
devours me, friendship may come, love and hope being dead. May this be
true? Can my soul, inextricably linked to this perishable frame, become
lethargic and cold, even as this sensitive mechanism shall lose its
youthful elasticity? Then, with lack-lustre eyes, grey hairs, and
wrinkled brow, though now the words sound hollow and meaningless, then,
tottering on the grave’s extreme edge, I may be—your affectionate and
true friend,
“PERDITA.”
Raymond’s answer was brief. What indeed could he reply to her
complaints, to her griefs which she jealously paled round, keeping out
all thought of remedy. “Notwithstanding your bitter letter,” he wrote,
“for bitter I must call it, you are the chief person in my estimation,
and it is your happiness that I would principally consult. Do that
which seems best to you: and if you can receive gratification from one
mode of life in preference to another, do not let me be any obstacle. I
foresee that the plan which you mark out in your letter will not endure
long; but you are mistress of yourself, and it is my sincere wish to
contribute as far as you will permit me to your happiness.”
“Raymond has prophesied well,” said Perdita, “alas, that it should be
so! our present mode of life cannot continue long, yet I will not be
the first to propose alteration. He beholds in me one whom he has
injured even unto death; and I derive no hope from his kindness; no
change can possibly be brought about even by his best intentions. As
well might Cleopatra have worn as an ornament the vinegar which
contained her dissolved pearl, as I be content with the love that
Raymond can now offer me.”
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