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I could not see her thus lost, without exerting myself to remedy the
evil —remediless I knew, if I could not in the end bring her to
reconcile herself to Raymond. Before he went I used every argument,
every persuasion to induce her to stop his journey. She answered the
one with a gush of tears—telling me that to be persuaded—life and the
goods of life were a cheap exchange. It was not will that she wanted,
but the capacity; again and again she declared, it were as easy to
enchain the sea, to put reins on the wind’s viewless courses, as for
her to take truth for falsehood, deceit for honesty, heartless
communion for sincere, confiding love. She answered my reasonings more
briefly, declaring with disdain, that the reason was hers; and, until I
could persuade her that the past could be unacted, that maturity could
go back to the cradle, and that all that was could become as though it
had never been, it was useless to assure her that no real change had
taken place in her fate. And thus with stern pride she suffered him to
go, though her very heart-strings cracked at the fulfilling of the act,
which rent from her all that made life valuable.
To change the scene for her, and even for ourselves, all unhinged by
the cloud that had come over us, I persuaded my two remaining
companions that it were better that we should absent ourselves for a
time from Windsor. We visited the north of England, my native Ulswater,
and lingered in scenes dear from a thousand associations. We lengthened
our tour into Scotland, that we might see Loch Katrine and Loch Lomond;
thence we crossed to Ireland, and passed several weeks in the
neighbourhood of Killarney. The change of scene operated to a great
degree as I expected; after a year’s absence, Perdita returned in
gentler and more docile mood to Windsor. The first sight of this place
for a time unhinged her. Here every spot was distinct with associations
now grown bitter. The forest glades, the ferny dells, and lawny
uplands, the cultivated and cheerful country spread around the silver
pathway of ancient Thames, all earth, air, and wave, took up one choral
voice, inspired by memory, instinct with plaintive regret.
But my essay towards bringing her to a saner view of her own situation,
did not end here. Perdita was still to a great degree uneducated. When
first she left her peasant life, and resided with the elegant and
cultivated Evadne, the only accomplishment she brought to any
perfection was that of painting, for which she had a taste almost
amounting to genius. This had occupied her in her lonely cottage, when
she quitted her Greek friend’s protection. Her pallet and easel were
now thrown aside; did she try to paint, thronging recollections made
her hand tremble, her eyes fill with tears. With this occupation she
gave up almost every other; and her mind preyed upon itself almost to
madness.
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