She went back a long way, even to the days of her troubled girlhood,
keeping nothing back, telling him in simple language all the story of
her life.
All unconscious was she of its complete self-revelation. Peter Rosmead,
listening, with only a brief word interjected here and there, was filled
with a pity so vast that he did not know how to contain himself. He saw
this young woman-creature, at the time when she ought to have been
enjoying girlhood, doing not only a woman’s work in the world but also
forced to act the man’s part--to face abnormal difficulties, to solve
the problems of existence in loneliness and without help.
And when she came to the end and related simply, yet with a sort of bald
power, the story of her London experiences, he could bear no more.
"My God, Isla, you must cease! I tell you I can’t hear any more."
"You must," she said clearly, "because this is the part which
explains--which explains--why I am not free. You see, I had got so very
tired and hopeless, and my money was all done, and I had no more heart
left to fight. And just then Neil Drummond came, and he was like a
brother to me, and--and he had loved me all my life, and I thought I,
too, could care a little, and that we might be happy together."
He put his hand up to his forehead with a sudden gesture and kept it
there until he felt the flash of Isla’s mournful reproach on his face.
"If only you had written a single line!" she said almost piteously. "If
I had ever known or guessed that you remembered my existence I could
have held out. But I was so tired, so tired!"
She who had been strong so long, whom trouble had never daunted, gave
way before the insistent clamour of her woman’s heart. For the moment
she could not forgo the real heritage of her womanhood--could not make
the final renunciation. For she was not old yet, and life can be very
long to the sad.
Rosmead was as one who took swift and decisive counsel with himself.
He lifted a chair to the hearth in front of her and sat down so that he
could the better see her face.
"Listen to me, my dear," he said in his quiet, compelling voice. "We
must face this thing together, try to grasp exactly what it means, and
decide what is to be done. Let us do it quietly, try to deal with it as
if we were not the chief actors in it."
Isla sat back and folded her hands on her lap. She was willing to
listen--nay, listen she must. And, somehow, she did not seem to care.
She had rolled away the stone from the door of her heart. Peter Rosmead
knew that she loved him, just as she knew that he loved her. Well, he
was strong and good, he would decide and act for her. Hence the peace
upon her face, at which Rosmead, himself torn with conflict, wondered.
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