"It does not mean only a disappointment to me--a lifelong
disappointment, the overthrow of everything that I have been waiting
for," he began slowly. "It means the shipwreck of three lives. If you
don’t care for Drummond how can you be a good wife to him or make him
happy?"
"There are many women who are married to men they do not care very much
for. I have seen them, and they seem to get along," was all she said.
"What other women might do with impunity you couldn’t. You are the soul
of truth, and, moreover, you cannot hide what you think and feel. If
you could have done it better, dear woman, life might perhaps have been
a little less hard for you."
"But after a while," she said in a low voice, "it might be possible. I
should try very hard. And, after all, it is not happiness we are here
for. One has only to look around to see how very little of it there is
in this world."
"By heaven, Isla, I can’t accept that--no, I can’t! God means us to be
happy. It is what He has created us for. Only we do wrong things. It
is we who make the shipwreck, and I believe that if you go on with this
marriage you will ruin three lives."
She only shook her head.
"Is Drummond the man--do you think?--to be contented with what you
purpose to give him--wifely duty, without wifely love?"
"He is very good," she said wearily. "His kindness and his patience
never fail."
"That may be true. But afterwards would come the crucial test. You
can’t do it, Isla--you can’t! There is--there must be a way out, and we
must find it together. Will you leave it to me?"
"I’ll leave everything! I am so tired! I can do nothing more. But I
will be true to Neil Drummond. I may tell him, but I will keep my
promise if he holds me to it, and if you will let me go now I will say
good night. It is nearly ten o’clock. I have been travelling for two
days, and I feel as if I could not bear any more."
He instantly forgot his own sore disappointment and was concerned only
for her with that great and tender concern which belongs to the strong
and which the tired woman felt so perilously sweet.
"Just a moment; what about to-morrow? Can’t you wait until Friday? If
I could get away I would travel with you to-morrow, but it is impossible
to do so without giving offence in quarters where it is important not to
give offence. Will you wait till Friday? You are not fit to travel
alone."
She looked up at him, and her eyes wavered.
"I should like to, but I can’t stay here. Let us meet in the morning
and decide. At least, I need not travel until the two o’clock train."
He suffered her to go then, merely touching her hand at parting, because
of the barrier that was between.
Rosmead had boasted that difficulties in his way existed only for the
purpose of being demolished, but he was now in front of one that taxed
his boasted powers.
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