The Laurel Bush: An Old-Fashioned Love StoryCraik, Dinah Maria Mulock
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The Laurel Bush: An Old-Fashioned Love Story
Craik, Dinah Maria Mulock
Fiction; Love stories
Robert Roy had once involuntarily called her so, when by accident one of
her rough boys hurt her hand, and he himself bound it up, with the
indescribable tenderness which the strong only know how to show or feel.
Well she remembered this; indeed, almost every thing he had said or done
came back upon her now--vividly, as we recall the words and looks of the
dead--mingled with such a hungering pain, such a cruel "miss" of him,
daily and hourly, his companionship, help, counsel, every thing she had
lacked all her life, and never found but with him and from him. And he
was gone, had broken his promise, had left her without a single farewell
word.
That he had cared for her, in some sort of way, she was certain; for he
was one of those who never say a word too large--nay, he usually said
much less than he felt. Whatever he had felt for her--whether
friendship, affection, love--must have been true. There was in his
nature intense reserve, but no falseness, no insincerity, not an atom of
pretense of any kind.
If he did not love her, why not tell her so? What was there to hinder
him? Nothing, except that strange notion of the "dishonorableness" of
asking a woman's love when one has nothing but love to give her in
return. This, even, he had seemed at the last to have set aside, as if
he could not go away without speaking. And yet he did it.
Perhaps he thought she did not care for him? He had once said a man
ought to feel quite sure of a woman before he asked her. Also, that he
should never ask twice, since, if she did not know her own mind then, she
never would know it, and such a woman was the worst possible bargain a
man could make in marriage.
Not know her own mind! Alas, poor soul, Fortune knew it only too well.
In that dreadful fortnight it was "borne in upon her," as pious people
say, that though she felt kindly to all human beings, the one human being
who was necessary to her--without whom her life might be busy, indeed,
and useful, but never perfect, an endurance instead of joy--was this
young man, as solitary as herself, as poor, as hard-working; good,
gentle, brave Robert Roy.
Oh why had they not come together, heart to heart--just they two, so
alone in the world--and ever after belonged to one another, even though
it had been years and years before they were married?
"If only he had love me, and told me so!" was her bitter cry. "I could
have waited ever so hardly, and quite alone, if only I might have had a
right to him, and been his comfort, as he was mine. But now--now--"
Yet still she waited, looking forward daily to that dreadful post hour;
and when it had gone by, nerving herself to endure until tomorrow. At
last hope, slowly dying, was killed outright.
One day at tea-time the boys blurted out, with happy carelessness, their
short-lived regrets for him being quite over, the news that Mr. Roy had
sailed.
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