That last wasn't a message from Denis; Peter knew that. He knew that
there would be no more such messages from Denis; the Margerisons had gone
a little too far in their latest enterprise; they had strained the cord
to breaking-point, and it had broken. In future Denis might be kind and
friendly to Peter when they met, but he wouldn't bring about meetings;
they would embarrass him. But Lucy knew nothing of that. Denis hadn't
mentioned to her what had happened at Astleys last November; he never
dwelt on unpleasant subjects or made a talk about them. So Lucy said to
Peter and Rhoda, "You must come and see us soon," and Peter said, "You're
so far away, you know," evading her, and she gave him a sudden wide clear
look, taking in all he didn't say, which was the way they had with one
another, so that no deceits could ever stand between them.
"Don't be _silly_, Peter," she told him; then, "'_Course_ you must come";
but he only smiled at her and said, "Some day, perhaps."
"Honey sandwiches, if you come at tea-time," she reminded him. "D'_you_
like them, Rhoda?" She used the name prettily, half shyly, with one of
her luminous, friendly looks. "They're Peter's favourite food, you know."
But Rhoda didn't know; Peter had never told her; perhaps because it would
be extravagant to have them, perhaps because he never put even foods into
class-lists. Only Lucy knew without being told, probably because it was
her favourite food too.
When Lucy went, it was as if a ray of early spring sunshine had stolen
into the room and gone. A luminous person: that was the thing Rhoda felt
her to be; a study in clear pale lights; one would not have been
surprised if she had crept in on a wind from a strange fairy world with
her arms full of cold wet primroses, and danced out, taking with her the
souls of those who dwelt within. Rhoda wasn't jealous now, if she had
ever had a touch of that.
Neither Peter nor Rhoda went to the Urquharts' house, which was a long
way off. But Lucy came again, many times, to Greville Street, through
that spring and summer, stroking the cat's fur backwards, laughing at
Peter, shyly friendly to Rhoda.
And then for a time her laughter was sad and her eyes wistful, because
her father died. She said once, "I feel so stranded now, Peter; cut off
from what was my life; from what really is my life, you know. Father and
Felicity and I were so disreputable always, and as long as I had father
I could be disreputable too, whenever I felt I couldn't bear being
prosperous. I had only to go inside the house and there I was--you know,
Peter?--it was all round me, and I was part of it.... Now I'm cut off
from all that sort of thing. Denis and I _are_ so well off, d'you know.
Everything goes right. Denis's friends are all so happy and successful
and beautifully dressed. I _like_ them to be, of course; they are joys,
like the sun shining; only..."
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