Authors -- Fiction; Mentoring of authors -- Fiction; Psychological fiction; Young men -- Fiction
She sat there smiling at him, and he never asked himself which book she
meant; for after all he had written three or four. That seemed a vulgar
detail, and he wasn’t even gratified by the idea of the pleasure she told
him—her handsome bright face told him—he had given her. The feeling she
appealed to, or at any rate the feeling she excited, was something
larger, something that had little to do with any quickened pulsation of
his own vanity. It was responsive admiration of the life she embodied,
the young purity and richness of which appeared to imply that real
success was to resemble _that_, to live, to bloom, to present the
perfection of a fine type, not to have hammered out headachy fancies with
a bent back at an ink-stained table. While her grey eyes rested on
him—there was a wideish space between these, and the division of her
rich-coloured hair, so thick that it ventured to be smooth, made a free
arch above them—he was almost ashamed of that exercise of the pen which
it was her present inclination to commend. He was conscious he should
have liked better to please her in some other way. The lines of her face
were those of a woman grown, but the child lingered on in her complexion
and in the sweetness of her mouth. Above all she was natural—that was
indubitable now; more natural than he had supposed at first, perhaps on
account of her æsthetic toggery, which was conventionally unconventional,
suggesting what he might have called a tortuous spontaneity. He had
feared that sort of thing in other cases, and his fears had been
justified; for, though he was an artist to the essence, the modern
reactionary nymph, with the brambles of the woodland caught in her folds
and a look as if the satyrs had toyed with her hair, made him shrink not
as a man of starch and patent leather, but as a man potentially himself a
poet or even a faun. The girl was really more candid than her costume,
and the best proof of it was her supposing her liberal character suited
by any uniform. This was a fallacy, since if she was draped as a
pessimist he was sure she liked the taste of life. He thanked her for
her appreciation—aware at the same time that he didn’t appear to thank
her enough and that she might think him ungracious. He was afraid she
would ask him to explain something he had written, and he always winced
at that—perhaps too timidly—for to his own ear the explanation of a work
of art sounded fatuous. But he liked her so much as to feel a confidence
that in the long run he should be able to show her he wasn’t rudely
evasive. Moreover she surely wasn’t quick to take offence, wasn’t
irritable; she could be trusted to wait. So when he said to her, “Ah
don’t talk of anything I’ve done, don’t talk of it _here_; there’s
another man in the house who’s the actuality!”—when he uttered this short
sincere protest it was with the sense that she would see in the words
neither mock humility nor the impatience of a successful man bored with
praise.
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