Authors -- Fiction; Mentoring of authors -- Fiction; Psychological fiction; Young men -- Fiction
“Ah, my dear young man, don’t talk about passing—for the likes of me!
I’m passing away—nothing else than that. She has a better use for her
young imagination (isn’t it fine?) than in ‘representing’ in any way such
a weary wasted used-up animal!” The Master spoke with a sudden sadness
that produced a protest on Paul’s part; but before the protest could be
uttered he went on, reverting to the latter’s striking novel: “I had no
idea you were so good—one hears of so many things. But you’re
surprisingly good.”
“I’m going to be surprisingly better,” Overt made bold to reply.
“I see that, and it’s what fetches me. I don’t see so much else—as one
looks about—that’s going to be surprisingly better. They’re going to be
consistently worse—most of the things. It’s so much easier to be
worse—heaven knows I’ve found it so. I’m not in a great glow, you know,
about what’s breaking out all over the place. But you _must_ be
better—you really must keep it up. I haven’t of course. It’s very
difficult—that’s the devil of the whole thing, keeping it up. But I see
you’ll be able to. It will be a great disgrace if you don’t.”
“It’s very interesting to hear you speak of yourself; but I don’t know
what you mean by your allusions to your having fallen off,” Paul Overt
observed with pardonable hypocrisy. He liked his companion so much now
that the fact of any decline of talent or of care had ceased for the
moment to be vivid to him.
“Don’t say that—don’t say that,” St. George returned gravely, his head
resting on the top of the sofa-back and his eyes on the ceiling. “You
know perfectly what I mean. I haven’t read twenty pages of your book
without seeing that you can’t help it.”
“You make me very miserable,” Paul ecstatically breathed.
“I’m glad of that, for it may serve as a kind of warning. Shocking
enough it must be, especially to a young fresh mind, full of faith—the
spectacle of a man meant for better things sunk at my age in such
dishonour.” St. George, in the same contemplative attitude, spoke softly
but deliberately, and without perceptible emotion. His tone indeed
suggested an impersonal lucidity that was practically cruel—cruel to
himself—and made his young friend lay an argumentative hand on his arm.
But he went on while his eyes seemed to follow the graces of the
eighteenth-century ceiling: “Look at me well, take my lesson to heart—for
it _is_ a lesson. Let that good come of it at least that you shudder
with your pitiful impression, and that this may help to keep you straight
in the future. Don’t become in your old age what I have in mine—the
depressing, the deplorable illustration of the worship of false gods!”
“What do you mean by your old age?” the young man asked.
“It has made me old. But I like your youth.”
Paul answered nothing—they sat for a minute in silence. They heard the
others going on about the governmental majority. Then “What do you mean
by false gods?” he enquired.
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