There is no need to dwell on this part of my life. I have said enough
to indicate that my nature was of the sensitive, unpractical order,
and that it grew up in an uncongenial medium, which could never foster
it into happy, healthy development. When I was sixteen I was sent to
Geneva to complete my course of education; and the change was a very
happy one to me, for the first sight of the Alps, with the setting
sun on them, as we descended the Jura, seemed to me like an entrance
into heaven; and the three years of my life there were spent in a
perpetual sense of exaltation, as if from a draught of delicious wine,
at the presence of Nature in all her awful loveliness. You will think,
perhaps, that I must have been a poet, from this early sensibility to
Nature. But my lot was not so happy as that. A poet pours forth his
song and _believes_ in the listening ear and answering soul, to which
his song will be floated sooner or later. But the poet's sensibility
without his voice--the poet's sensibility that finds no vent but in
silent tears on the sunny bank, when the noonday light sparkles on the
water, or in an inward shudder at the sound of harsh human tones, the
sight of a cold human eye--this dumb passion brings with it a fatal
solitude of soul in the society of one's fellow-men. My least solitary
moments were those in which I pushed off in my boat, at evening,
towards the centre of the lake; it seemed to me that the sky, and the
glowing mountain-tops, and the wide blue water, surrounded me with a
cherishing love such as no human face had shed on me since my mother's
love had vanished out of my life. I used to do as Jean Jacques did--lie
down in my boat and let it glide where it would, while I looked up at
the departing glow leaving one mountain-top after the other, as if the
prophet's chariot of fire were passing over them on its way to the home
of light. Then, when the white summits were all sad and corpse-like,
I had to push homeward, for I was under careful surveillance, and was
allowed no late wanderings. This disposition of mine was not favourable
to the formation of intimate friendships among the numerous youths of
my own age who are always to be found studying at Geneva. Yet I made
_one_ such friendship; and, singularly enough, it was with a youth
whose intellectual tendencies were the very reverse of my own. I shall
call him Charles Meunier; his real surname--an English one, for he
was of English extraction--having since become celebrated. He was an
orphan, who lived on a miserable pittance while he pursued the medical
studies for which he had a special genius. Strange! that with my vague
mind, susceptible and unobservant, hating inquiry and given up to
contemplation, I should have been drawn towards a youth whose strongest
passion was science. But the bond was not an intellectual one; it came
from a source that can happily blend the stupid with the brilliant, the
dreamy with the practical: it came from community of feeling. Charles
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