Sampson was like a lost soul during the weeks that followed the trial.
The hundred and one distractions he sought in the feverish effort to
drive Alexandra Hildebrand out of his thoughts failed of their purpose.
They only left him more eager than before. He longed for a glimpse of
her adorable face, for a single look into her eyes, for the smile she
had promised as she rode away from him, for the sheer fragrance of her
unapproachable beauty. She filled his heart and brain, and she was lost
to him.
The most depressing fits of jealousy overtook him. He tried to reason
with himself. Why shouldn't she have a sweetheart? Why shouldn't she be
in love with some one? What else could he expect--in heaven's name, what
else? Of course there was one among all the hundreds who adored her that
she could adore in return. Still he was sick with jealousy. He hated
even the possibility that there was a man living who could claim her as
his own.
At the end of a month of resolute inactivity, he threw off all restraint
and inaugurated a determined though innocuous search for her. He made it
his business to stroll up and down Fifth Avenue during the fashionable
hours of the day, and so frantic were his efforts to discover her in the
shifting throngs that he always went home with a headache, bone-weary
and appetiteless. His alert, all-enveloping gaze swept the avenue from
Thirty-fourth Street to Fiftieth at least twice a day, and by night it
raked the theatres and restaurants with an assiduity that rendered him
an impossible companion for friends who were so unfortunate as to be
involved in his prowlings. His lack of concentration, except in one
pursuit, was woful. His friends were annoyed, and justly. No one likes
inattention. Half the time he didn't hear a word they were saying to
him, and the other half they were resentfully silent.
He invaded Altman's, McCreery's, Lord & Taylor's and the other big
shops, buying things that he did not want, and he entered no end of
fashionable millinery establishments--and once a prominent corset
concern--not for the sake of purchasing, of course, but always with the
manner of an irritated gentleman looking for an inconsiderate wife.
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