Mental illness -- Fiction; Russia -- Fiction; Russian fiction -- Translations into English; Teachers -- Fiction
The nedotikomka ran under the chair and in the corners, and squealed.
It was dirty, evil-smelling, repulsive and terrifying. It was already
quite clear that it was hostile to Peredonov, and rolled in entirely
on his account, and that it had not existed anywhere before. It had
been created--and it had been bewitched. And this evil, many-eyed beast
lived here to his dread and to his perdition--followed him, deceived
him, laughed at him--now rolled upon the floor, now turned into a rag,
a ribbon, a twig, a flag, a small cloud, a little dog, a pillar of
dust in the street, and everywhere it crawled and ran after Peredonov.
It harassed him, it wearied him with its vacillating dance. If only
someone would deliver him from it, with a word or with a downright
blow. But he had no friends here, there was no one to come to save him.
He must use his own cunning or the malicious beast would ruin him.
* * * * *
Peredonov thought of a device. He smeared the entire floor with glue
so that the nedotikomka should get stuck. What did stick to the floor
was the soles of Varvara's shoes and the hems of her dress, but the
nedotikomka rolled on freely and laughed shrilly. Varvara abused him
loudly.
Persistent suspicions of being under constant persecution frightened
him. More and more he became immersed in a world of wild illusions.
This reflected itself in his face, which became a motionless mask of
terror.
In the evenings Peredonov no longer went to play billiards. After
dinner he shut himself in his bedroom, barricaded the room with various
objects--a chair upon a table--and very carefully surrounded himself
with crosses and exorcisms and sat down to write denunciations against
everyone he could think of. He wrote denunciations not only against
people but against playing-card queens. As soon as he had written one
he would take it immediately to the Officer of the gendarmerie. And in
this way he spent every evening.
Everywhere card-figures walked before Peredonov's eyes, as if they
were alive--kings, queens and knaves. Even the other cards walked
about. These consisted of people with silver buttons: schoolboys and
policemen. There was the ace of spades--stout, with a protruding
stomach, almost entirely stomach. Sometimes the cards became
transformed into his acquaintances. Living people were mixed up with
these strange phantasms.
Peredonov was convinced that a knave was standing behind the door and
that he had strength and power--something like a policeman's--and that
he could take you away somewhere to some terrible jail. Under the
table sat the nedotikomka. And Peredonov was afraid to glance either
under the table or behind the door.
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