British -- France -- Fiction; French -- England -- Fiction; Love stories
“What is gained is that I shall have my right to be with her. I shall
have my right to help her. While she had things to hide I could not help
her; she would not let me. Now, if other things should fail her,” said
Alix, “she will know that I am there to be depended upon.” And with the
words it was as if he saw her go forward and take the tragic unveiled
figure by the hand.
She must have felt some strain in his wide gaze, for, meeting it, she
turned away her eyes, adding: “It was Maman’s mistake ever to have sent
me here. I felt that long ago.”
“And mine to have kept you, then.” Giles turned to look out of the
window, struggling with the sense of tears. His little Alix! To what did
she return? What was the destiny there before her in the jungle? “Do I
count for nothing in all this?” he asked. “I wanted you to stay in the
first place for your own sake. I want you to stay now for mine. Put
Jerry aside. Think of me for a moment. I’ve nobody but you. You’re the
only person in the world who knows what I’ve been through, and isn’t it
true that I’m the only person who understands your life? That’s a bond,
isn’t it? What shall we do without each other?” said Giles, and,
helplessly, his voice was a younger voice at that moment than Alix’s. He
was the lonely little boy begging not to be abandoned.
Behind him Alix was silent for a moment; then she said, very gently:
“But even if I had not Maman to think of, Giles, we should not be
together; you will be in Oxford.”
“And my idea is that you should come to Oxford next year and study at
Somerville. Even while you were here we’d see each other constantly. It
would be everything to know that you were near by.”
“But it is impossible, dear Giles,” said Alix. It was the same word she
always found.
He turned to her from the window. “Do you mean because of Toppie? My
mother? Toppie will be leaving us. My mother’s first thought was that we
must keep you always.”
“She wishes to keep me in order to keep me from Maman.”
“She doesn’t know your mother. I’ll make her understand. She wants to
keep you because she’s so fond of you.”
“But that’s not enough now, Giles,” said Alix, looking across at him.
“You must see yourself that that cannot now be enough. Anyone who loves
me now must take in Maman too. It is Maman I must think of. And my place
is beside her. You will see it, too, dear Giles, when you have had time
to think. I must go to-morrow, and you must help me. Will you, Giles,
for I have no money?”
He saw that he must yield. Such resolution could not be opposed. And
after all wasn’t it best to let her go? He would have struggled against
her longer had it not come to him that nothing would move further the
cause he had at heart, Jerry’s cause, and Alix’s, than her withdrawal.
Better, much better, were Lady Mary to see that Alix was removed; better
for Jerry that he should find something to endure and wait for and win
with difficulty.
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