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“And can you really believe that your way is the right way, Alix?” Giles
inquired. “Can you imagine anything more unhappy than having to spend
your life with someone you don’t love? That’s what the _mariage de
convenance_ must often mean;—and, since one hasn’t found love in
marriage, looking for it afterwards outside.”
Alix’s eyes, as Giles thus indicated the tragic unveiled figure that
stood between them, remained fixed upon the fire and she did not flush.
She only seemed to meditate, and, after a further pause, she said: “Even
marriages for love sometimes end like that. People’s hearts may change.
The heart is not always a guide. That is perhaps the great difference;
we do not believe that the heart is the guide; and you do. We believe
that since the heart can make such mistakes—both inside and outside of
marriage—we must depend on other things as well.”
“On the suitable things, you mean,” said Giles. “But isn’t it better to
make mistakes for ourselves, and to abide by the consequences, than to
have other people make them for us? As for suitability, in all the
essentials you and Jerry are perfectly matched. It’s absurd to wreck his
happiness and yours because his mother finds disadvantages in your
mother’s position. Do look at it straight, Alix.”
“But I do look at it straight, Giles,” said Alix. “And all that I can
see is that it would be impossible for me to marry Jerry.”
After this a little silence fell between them. It was strange to feel,
sitting there in the familiar room, with Alix beside him, that the grief
that had brought them so near had also set them apart. Alix had never
been so near him as yesterday; she had never been so far as now. A cold
apprehension entered Giles’s heart as he felt it. If with her first step
into maturity she was so removed, how much might not the future remove
her? What claim, what charm could England have for Alix now? And as if
she answered his thoughts she said: “Will you help me to go back to
Maman to-morrow, Giles?”
“But, my dear Alix,” cried Giles, rising and walking up and down the
room, “why go now? How would you explain your sudden return to her?
Surely you’re not going to deal her such a blow as to let her know what
has happened?”
“I have thought of it all, Giles,” said Alix, “and Jerry will be my
explanation. She knows of Jerry’s offer of marriage, and what is more
natural than that I should return to her if his family object to me? I
shall tell Maman nothing; but I hope that she soon will feel that she
has nothing more to hide from me. When Maman knows that his family
object, she will be able, very soon, to guess why.”
Giles had turned at the end of the room. “You need never say anything,
you mean?”
“I need never say anything”—Alix looked back at him—“except that
Marigold Hamble went to Paris and that when she came back and had seen
Lady Mary they objected. Maman will guess.”
“Well; and after that? What then? When she’s guessed,” Giles asked,
“what is gained?”
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