British -- France -- Fiction; French -- England -- Fiction; Love stories
That was really what had been at the bottom of her heart during all her
time with them; France. And if she had talked about it so little that
must merely have been, he reflected, because she cared about it so much.
Of course she loved her own country; he could not expect or wish
anything else; but had she, he wondered, any more love for England now
than when she had first come among them? And he felt, when he asked
himself the question, a little rueful and a little vexed. She was not a
shallow child; that he knew; it was because she was not shallow that he
minded her imperviousness to all that meant so much to them. With the
imperviousness went an oddly mature security, as of a creature formed
and fixed and not to be altered by circumstance; and it was when he
thought of this security that Giles felt a little angry; for, after all,
what had France given her, poor kid?
Giles did not think of his family, in particular, as benefactors to the
little French girl. That side of her indebtedness was not one to engage
his attention. It was England as a whole that he had hoped would by this
time have crept about her heart; England with its gentle days of Spring,
its balmy days of Summer; all the happy family life they had just come
from; tennis, dogs, strawberries on the lawn, and long bicycle rides
over the hills; England’s sweetness and fidelity embodied in his mother;
its holiness in Toppie.
The starlike image of Toppie rose before the young man’s mind and with
it his deepest doubt of the little French girl beside him. He had come
from pity for the child’s unconscious plight, pity for the cruelty of
her position there among them—a little creature so proud that it would
have been to her a burning humiliation could she have guessed how her
mother had dealt with her and them in foisting her upon them—he had
come, from this initial pity, to feel affection, then an odd, perplexed
respect, and finally a profound, a tender solicitude. It was upon her
future in France, with her mother, that it centred; but that was the
outward aspect of the inner fear; for when he thought of Toppie and of
holiness the question he had also to ask himself was whether Alix was
impervious to holiness, too?
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