When Dick had shaved, he looked at the shower, hesitated a moment, then
his face set stubbornly. I'm darned if I will, was his thought; a sheer
waste of time. He did, however, change his shoes to a pair of heavy,
high-laced ones fit for the roughness of hunting. He was at his desk
again, looking over the notes in his scribble pads for the morning's
work, when Paula entered. She did not call her "Good morning, merry
gentleman"; but came quite close to him before she greeted him softly
with:
"The Acorn-planter. Ever tireless, never weary Red Cloud."
He noted the violet-blue shadows under her eyes, as he arose, without
offering to touch her. Nor did she offer invitation.
"A white night?" he asked, as he placed a chair.
"A white night," she answered wearily. "Not a second's sleep, though I
tried so hard."
Both were reluctant of speech, and they labored under a mutual
inability to draw their eyes away from each other.
"You ... you don't look any too fit yourself," she said.
"Yes, my face," he nodded. "I was looking at it while I shaved. The
expression won't come off."
"Something happened to you last night," she probed, and he could not
fail to see the same compassion in her eyes that he had seen in Oh
Dear's. "Everybody remarked your expression. What was it?"
He shrugged his shoulders. "It has been coming on for some time," he
evaded, remembering that the first hint of it had been given him by
Paula's portrait of him. "You've noticed it?" he inquired casually.
She nodded, then was struck by a sudden thought. He saw the idea leap
to life ere her words uttered it.
"Dick, you haven't an affair?"
It was a way out. It would straighten all the tangle. And hope was in
her voice and in her face.
He smiled, shook his head slowly, and watched her disappointment.
"I take it back," he said. "I have an affair."
"Of the heart?"
She was eager, as he answered, "Of the heart."
But she was not prepared for what came next. He abruptly drew his chair
close, till his knees touched hers, and, leaning forward, quickly but
gently prisoned her hands in his resting on her knees.
"Don't be alarmed, little bird-woman," he quieted her. "I shall not
kiss you. It is a long time since I have. I want to tell you about that
affair. But first I want to tell you how proud I am--proud of myself. I
am proud that I am a lover. At my age, a lover! It is unbelievable, and
it is wonderful. And such a lover! Such a curious, unusual, and quite
altogether remarkable lover. In fact, I have laughed all the books and
all biology in the face. I am a monogamist. I love the woman, the one
woman. After a dozen years of possession I love her quite madly, oh, so
sweetly madly."
Her hands communicated her disappointment to him, making a slight,
impulsive flutter to escape; but he held them more firmly.
"I know her every weakness, and, weakness and strength and all, I love
her as madly as I loved her at the first, in those mad moments when I
first held her in my arms."
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