Clergy -- Fiction; Love stories; Scotland -- Fiction
All this Babbie read in the Gavin of the past night, and to her it was
the book of love. What things she had known, said and done in that
holy name! How shamefully have we all besmirched it! She had only
known it as the most selfish of the passions, a brittle image that men
consulted because it could only answer in the words they gave it to
say. But here was a man to whom love was something better than his own
desires leering on a pedestal. Such love as Babbie had seen hitherto
made strong men weak, but this was a love that made a weak man strong.
All her life, strength had been her idol, and the weakness that bent
to her cajolery her scorn. But only now was it revealed to her that
strength, instead of being the lusty child of passions, grows by
grappling with and throwing them.
So Babbie loved the little minister for the best that she had ever
seen in man. I shall be told that she thought far more of him than he
deserved, forgetting the mean in the worthy: but who that has had a
glimpse of heaven will care to let his mind dwell henceforth on earth?
Love, it is said, is blind, but love is not blind. It is an extra eye,
which shows us what is most worthy of regard. To see the best is to
see most clearly, and it is the lover's privilege.
Down in the Auld Licht kirk that forenoon Gavin preached a sermon in
praise of Woman, and up in the mudhouse in Windyghoul Babbie sat
alone. But it was the Sabbath day to her: the first Sabbath in her
life. Her discovery had frozen her mind for a time, so that she could
only stare at it with eyes that would not shut; but that had been in
the night. Already her love seemed a thing of years, for it was as old
as herself, as old as the new Babbie. It was such a dear delight that
she clasped it to her, and exulted over it because it was hers, and
then she cried over it because she must give it up.
For Babbie must only look at this love and then turn from it. My heart
aches for the little Egyptian, but the Promised Land would have
remained invisible to her had she not realized that it was only for
others. That was the condition of her seeing.
Chapter Twenty-Four.
THE NEW WORLD, AND THE WOMAN WHO MAY NOT DWELL THEREIN.
Up here in the glen school-house after my pupils have straggled home,
there comes to me at times, and so sudden that it may be while I am
infusing my tea, a hot desire to write great books. Perhaps an hour
afterwards I rise, beaten, from my desk, flinging all I have written
into the fire (yet rescuing some of it on second thought), and curse
myself as an ingle-nook man, for I see that one can only paint what he
himself has felt, and in my passion I wish to have all the vices, even
to being an impious man, that I may describe them better. For this may
I be pardoned. It comes to nothing in the end, save that my tea is
brackish.
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