Christian life -- Fiction; Married women -- Fiction; Runaway husbands -- Fiction
As can be easily imagined, Phebe's life was a lonely one. The fact of
her husband cutting himself off from her in such an abrupt fashion was
quite enough to bring about this loneliness. There was not even
companionship through the pen; she had answered both Ralph's letters,
and still continued to write, giving him all particulars of the
business, trying to put as much love into the letters as she could truly
find echo in her heart, but no further replies came. All was a blank.
And then there was the further loneliness all souls find the nearer they
get to God. True, she had her sister, and Nanna, and sunny Jack, and
Bessie; but these only touched the outer part of her being. We stand as
units before God, and the more we understand our relationship to God the
more we realise the soul's loneliness from the human side--a loneliness
which draws us nearer and nearer to God.
Phebe often wished she could constantly remember the presence of God
with her, but sometimes for a whole day she would forget Him, and she
knew that was the reason why so often she failed, and the peace was
broken. Prayer came very naturally to her when anything was wanted, but
she felt that was not sufficient.
"What do people do who have bad memories?" she asked herself. Then came
thoughts of strings round fingers and knots in handkerchiefs, but these
seemed childish. One day the words, "When they saw His star," were very
much with her, and the thought came, "I wish I could always see His
star!" and this was followed by what she thought a bright idea. She
would make a number of silver stars and place one in each room, shops
and sale-room included, where she could not fail to see them; no one but
herself need know their meaning, and they would continually remind her
of His presence until she had trained herself to do without their help.
The plan was carried out. There was nothing in it anybody could object
to; there was nothing of the fetish, nor crucifix, nor altar about it.
Many an eye was raised up to those stars; the children were especially
fascinated by them, and the shop was even spoken of by some as "The shop
of the silver star," but none guessed their meaning. Reynolds was quite
in the dark; though he often watched his mistress fix her eyes on them,
he never came near the secret. Most people thought they were only in the
nature of decoration. How often we draw near to holy places without even
a thrill or look of wonder!
And the stars helped her greatly. I do not say she never forgot, but
every little help we can secure along life's way to bind us to the
Divine we should make the most of and rejoice over.
Even sharp-eyed, sharp-witted Bessie, who was now a real member of the
circle, did not guess their meaning. Perhaps this was because she was so
full of her own good-fortune that she was not keen on anything else just
then, and when her first joy had cooled somewhat, the sight of the stars
had become too familiar to excite comment.
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