The Little Moment of HappinessKelland, Clarence Budington
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The Little Moment of Happiness
Kelland, Clarence Budington
Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; World War, 1914-1918 -- Fiction
“Just be here,” he repeated after her. “Just be here....” And in a flash
as of lightning he saw what her just being here would mean to those
men.... He saw what a lofty height they would set her upon, and how they
would worship her beauty, and how they would delight in her every
word.... It would be good for them, good for them as soldiers and good
for them as men!... What a war it was that produced this!...
“Look!” she said, and laughed aloud.
Kendall turned. The doorway was closed by a rapidly augmenting crowd of
boys in khaki, curious, eager, delighted, grinning.
“How do you do?” Maude said, with perfect calm. She walked toward them
and extended her hand, which boy after boy seized bashfully. “I’m Miss
Knox—and if you ever expect to get any hot chocolate, somebody’s got to
put up the stove. It isn’t much of a stove.”
“Say, miss,” blurted out a sergeant, “if you’ll—er—git out of here a
spell we’ll fix things up.... Say, was you calc’latin’ on stayin’?”
“I’m a permanent improvement,” she said.
From that instant Kendall had no doubts, conjured up no violated
proprieties. Maude Knox was _right_ to be there; there was no other spot
in the world where it was so right for her to be....
“I’ll clear out,” she said, and, pausing as she passed through the door,
“I could use some sort of a counter....”
“You bet, miss.”
“There,” said Maude to Kendall, presently.
“I see,” he said, soberly. “I’m seeing lots of things.”
“That weren’t visible in Detroit,” she added for him. Then, after a
pause, “And so am I.... There’s something in the air—here—in
Paris—wherever one goes in this country. It _gets_ you.... I could do
things. Yes, I could.... You have a feeling that nothing you do as an
individual counts—nothing matters. Everything we’ve ever been used to
seems so far away and insignificant. Don’t you feel that way?”
“Yes.”
“As if you could be very good or very, very bad—and it wouldn’t make a
cent’s worth of difference to anybody?”
“Yes.”
“Other girls are feeling it. I think they are all feeling it. There are
plenty of signs.... _C’est la guerre._ I suppose that’s it.... No, it
can’t be explained by a phrase of the streets; it’s deeper than that....
With one half of the world trying to slaughter the other half.... Every
little while I have a feeling that right and wrong have grown to be too
big to apply to individuals—they’re for _nations_. Does that express
what I mean? And then I’ve thought more than once that this is the end
of the world—the end of the old world and the starting-place of a new
one.... Temporarily we’re without a set of rules because the old ones
won’t do any more, and we’ve got to build up an altogether new code.”
“I’ve felt something like that, but I didn’t have a philosopher for a
father, so I didn’t know just what I was feeling or how to say it.”
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