I was still trembling and her quiet weeping made me more afraid. I was
angry with her too, but could not talk to her, I was so afraid. My
voice, I knew, would have issued thin and quavering, and I was afraid of
its hollow reverberations losing themselves uncertainly in the darkness.
By the little light I saw her put her hands up to her head in despair
... as though still half asleep; and before I could stop her again the
same piercing, incredibly terrifying shriek burst from her. Again I
trembled all over, involuntarily gnashing my teeth and feeling my skin
ripple like loathsome worms.
“Stop,” I cried, seizing her by the arms, “Stop,” afraid to wake her,
yet more afraid to hear again that appalling shriek—and in a moment she
was awake ... looking wildly round her, and the quiet weeping gave way
to a wild and tempestuous sobbing.
I was afraid of her, afraid to go on sleeping with her, lest she should
again shriek in that wild and unearthly fashion; afraid to fall asleep
again lest I should be awakened by that appalling shriek dinning in my
ears and my body quivering vilely under the impossible sound. I clung to
her: “What is it, tell me at least what it is,” I said.
For a time she would not tell me. Trembling all over with anguish and
fear of I knew not what, I insisted. When at last she did tell me it was
as though the world had suddenly been cut away from under my feet.
Helplessly and weeping I clung to her, with cold at my heart. That any
human being could accuse another of devilry so sinister, so cold, so
incredible even in dream, I had not conceived of. Loathing her, I clung
the closer in my anguish and despair.
III
One night at supper I had eaten cucumber. Soon after I went to bed and
on the first strokes of ten fell asleep.
After sleeping for a long time I awoke into a dimly lit room. I still
lay on the bed and after a moment a figure entered, and after a few
moments more, another, until in this fashion there were half a dozen
people in the room. I could not distinguish who they were, and quietly
and obscurely they moved round my bed. Now and then there was a hiss out
of the corners of the room, or a chuckle in reply to some unheard
obscenity.
A heavy weight oppressed me as though I knew they menaced me in some
obscure and dreadful way. I could not move.
I could not move, and always the same obscure and dreadful procession
encircled me and shadowy bodies pressed a little closer, then drew back
again to join the sinister group.
And though I saw nothing save their shadowy forms, I knew their eyes
gleamed down at me: their faces were lecherous: their hands clawed; and
forever and through long ages they went round me in sinister procession.
Suddenly ... and how I do not know, I had broken the bonds of sleep and
lay trembling in a cold sweat. Through my protecting blankets the last
strokes of ten were fading.
Improvisations
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