This tale always brings to me that many men, in some sudden moment which
even M. Maeterlinck would hesitate to define as "a treasure of the
humble," hear the playing of a tune such as that, which tells them of
some ending, unknown and indefinite, just as, in the moments of greatest
love, a man will feel for a terrible second the shivering white ice of
sanity, which tells him a different tale to that which he is murmuring
to the woman in his arms. Men who have heard it must have become morose
with the fear this distant dirge brought upon them; but of that
foreboding nothing certain can be known, and it is only in such a mood
as this, and to a Shelmerdene of women, that a fool will loosen his
foolishness to inquire into such things. Clarence Mangan must have heard
the tune as he lay drunk and wretched in his Dublin garret, for there is
more than Celtic gloom in the dirge of his lines. John Davidson, whose
poetry you so love, and who wrote in a moment of madness "that Death has
loaded dice," must have heard it, perhaps when first he came to venture
his genius in London, a young man with a strange, bad-tempered look in
his eyes; and he must have heard the exulting notes, as clearly as did
Manus MacCodrum, when he walked into the sea from Cornwall. Charles
Meryon must have heard it as he walked hungrily about the streets of
Paris, and wondered why those gargoyles--strange things to beautify!--on
Notre Dame, into which he had put so much life, could not scream aloud
to the people of Paris that a genius was dying among them for lack of
food and praise. Do you remember, Shelmerdene, how you and I, when first
I began to know you, stood before a little imp of wonderfully carved
onyx stone which leered at us from the centre of your mantelpiece, and I
said that it was like one of those gargoyles of Meryon's; and that
afternoon I told you about his life and death, and when I had finished
you said that I told the tale as though I enjoyed it, instead of being
frightened by the tragedy of it. But I admired your imp of onyx stone
very much, telling you that I loved its ravenous mouth and reptile
claws, because they looked so helplessly lustful after something
unattainable; and that same night I found a little black-and-gold box
awaiting me in my rooms, in which was the imp of onyx stone, and a note
saying that I must put it on my table because it would bring me luck.
For a second I did not believe your words, but thought that you had
given it to me to be a symbol for my helplessness, for I had said that
it lusted after something utterly unattainable. But the second passed,
and I found later that you had forgotten those words, and had sent it to
me because I liked it.... I would like to spend these glorious spring
days away from London with you, in quietness, perhaps in Galway
somewhere; but if you cannot come away with me to-morrow, I will take
you out to dinner instead, and we will talk about yourself and the
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