Lady Royd was no cynic now. The peril and discomfort of the times had
been opening closed windows for her, as for others who lived near this
wind-swept heath. By stealth, and fearing much, she had peered out
through these unshuttered casements; and Nance was speaking outright of
the fugitive, dim thoughts that she herself had harboured.
“Go, my dear,” she said gently. “You’ve the voice you sing with--the
voice that Rupert praises. Go, sing to me again of--of love and honour,
child.”
Nance flushed. She scarcely knew what she had said. “I do not need,”
she said, with instinctive grace and dignity. “You know so much of
them, and I so little; and I am sorry if--if I spoke in haste. I am so
tired, and I forget the--the deference owing to your years.”
So then, because they stood very near each other for this moment, and
because she feared intimacy just yet with the simple, happy glimpse of
life that Nance had shown her, Sir Jasper’s wife drew her skirts about
her and picked up the yapping, pampered thing she called a dog and
kissed its nose. It was her signal for good-night.
“A woman likes deference, my dear,” she said sharply, “deference of all
kinds, except that owing to--to advancing years. You sang out of tune
there, Nance. Never to be made love to again; never again, so long as
one’s little world lasts, to catch the glance, the little broken word
of tribute--things that do not wrong one’s husband, Nance, but add a
spice to the workaday, quiet road of love for him; they’re hard to give
up, my dear.”
Nance looked at her with frank surprise. She was strong and untried
yet; and Lady Royd was frail, but experienced so far as indolence
allowed. And there was a deep gulf between them.
“I will take my candle up,” said Nance lamely.
“Yes, and sleep well, child. Dream of--oh, of love and honour and the
foolish rosemary of life. And come sing to me to-morrow--of the things
you’ve dreamed. Perhaps I spoke at random, Nance. I’m widowed of my
husband; and this Rising never wore a lucky face to me--and--my temper
is not gentle, Nance, I know.”
That night there were few who slept at Windyhough. Sir Jasper’s wife,
alone with the wind that rattled at her window, made no disguise of the
love that beat, strong and trusty, underneath her follies. Despite
herself, she had come out at last into the road of life--the road of
mire and jealousies and tragedy, lit far ahead by the single lamp of
honour, for those whose eyes were trained to see it.
“I’m not worthy of him,” she moaned, drawing the sleepy spaniel toward
her. “My husband climbs the bigger hills, while I--am weak, as Rupert
is.”
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