“What else?” said Nance, her head thrown up with a sudden, eager
gesture that was vastly like her father’s. “Honour rusts, my lady,
if it stays always in the scabbard. Discomfort? I think honour--Sir
Jasper’s and my father’s--feeds on discomfort, thrives on it----”
“But Sir Jasper, what more did he need? He can find no more if he
returns--no more than he left behind when he went on this wild-goose
chase. I shall be waiting for him--the wife who loves him, no more, no
less----”
“Is there a boundary-wall round love, then?” asked Nance, with eyes
wide open and astonished. “I’m young and fanciful, perhaps. I thought
love was a thing that found wider fields to travel every hour; that,
each day one’s man came home with honour, one cared for him ever a
little the more, and knighted him afresh. For it is knighthood, surely,
a true man asks always from the woman of his choice.”
Lady Royd fingered her scent-bottle, and laughed vaguely, enjoying the
girl’s transparent honesty. “It all has a romantic sound, Nance. Did
you learn it from books, as poor Rupert learned his soldiery?”
The taunt stung Nance, because she had hoped, with odd persistency,
that Rupert would come in, after going his round of the house, to ask
her to sing to him. And he had not come; and she had tender songs
enough in readiness, for she remembered how wantonly she had hurt him
not long ago.
“Where did you learn it, girl?” insisted Lady Royd, with tired irony.
“I’m past the age of glamour--and half regret it--and you may recapture
for me all the fragment silliness. Nance, believe me, I cannot make a
satisfying meal of dew-drops. I must be getting old, for I grow fonder
and fonder of my cook, who sends substantial rations from the kitchen.”
So then Nance, hot-headed, resentful, not guessing that she was being
gently baited to while away an hour’s boredom from her companion--Nance
stood to her little, queenly height. And her eyes were beautiful,
because her eagerness shone through them. And she tapped her buckled
slipper on the beeswaxed floor, as if she were impatient to be dancing
with true men, or dying with them along the road that Sir Jasper and
his friends had sought.
“I learned it--as Rupert learned his soldiery, I think--not from books
at all, my lady. It was my heart taught me, or my soul, or what you
choose to name that something which is--is bigger, somehow, than one’s
self. Honour--I cannot tell you the keen, sharp strength, the sweetness
and the pity the word spells for me. It is like the swords my father
is so fond of--bright and slim, like toys to look at; but you can bend
them till point touches hilt and yet not break them. And you can ride
out and cleave a way with these same words.”
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