Things might have run easier if Helwise had been--well, something
quite inconceivably different from what she was. Her descent upon his
desolate hearth from unrewarding efforts as companion to successive old
ladies, had been welcomed by him at the time, not knowing that it was
her special mission in life to make it more desolate still. He had been
too busy at first to notice the atmosphere with which she surrounded
him, attributing his dreariness of spirit to his father’s loss and his
over-heavy task; and by the time he had made himself and formed his
routine, it was too late to send her away. She was happy after her
own parasitical fashion, and to uproot her now would mean a gigantic
effort to which neither his will nor his heart felt equal. But of late
there had grown upon him a longing for a home of his own making, an
atmosphere with which Helwise should never have anything to do. He
murmured old Samuel Daniel’s words as he leaned against the gate.
“To have some silly home I do desire,
Loth still to warm me by another’s fire.”
He had a home, certainly, and one silly enough, too, in its
mismanagement and lack of all peace; but it was another silliness for
which he yearned, the silliness of little, common home-interests and
home-jokes, of crossed glances and talk without words, of parting
kisses and meeting hands. He had a fire, of course, as well; that is to
say, he paid for it; but in every other sense it was “another’s.” He
thought of the drawing-room grate and renounced it violently.
Dusk was drawing down, now, though the Mountain still stayed with
him, faintly limned as a dried tear. Milking was over at Rakestraw.
He watched the cattle coming out from the shippons to a quiet night
in the cool fields. Near at hand a sleepy twittering told him where a
late-nested bird was hidden close. The clipped sheep and the sturdy
lambs still called to each other, as if the tender time of mother-love
was not yet over; and far down on the road he could hear children
pattering home from their summer treat. There came into his head a song
he had heard at a musical festival.
“What can lambkins do,
All the keen night through?
Nestle by their woolly mother,
The careful ewe.
“What can nestlings do
In the nightly dew?
Sleep beneath their mother’s wing
Till dawn breaks anew.
“If in field or tree
There might only be
Such a warm, soft sleeping-place
Found for me!”
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