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This state of mind, this mood of truculent discussion, was recalled by
the wall paintings in the tomb of a nobleman in the Theban hills. In
an agonized posture he awaits the outcome of his trial before Osiris.
Thoth, the true scribe, records on the wall the just balance between
the heart of the nobleman, which is in one pan of the scale, and
the feather of truth which is in the other. The noble appeals to his
heart, which has thus been separated from him, to stand by him during
the weighing and not to bear testimony against him. “Oh, heart of my
existence, rise not up against me; be not an enemy against me before
the divine powers; thou art my Ka that is in my body, the heart that
came to me from my mother.” The noble even tries a bribe by reminding
the Ka that his own chance of survival is dependent on his testimony
at this moment. The entire effort on the part of the man being tried
is to still the voice of his own conscience, to maintain stoutly his
innocence even to himself.
The attitude of the self-justifying noble might easily have suggested
those later childish struggles in which a sense of hidden guilt, of
repeated failure in “being good,” plays so large a part, and humbles a
child to the very dust. That the definite reminiscence evoked by the
tomb belonged to an earlier period of rebellion may indicate that the
Egyptian had not yet learned to commune with his gods for spiritual
refreshment.
Whether it is that the long days and magical nights on the Nile lend
themselves to a revival of former states of consciousness, or that I
had come to expect landmarks of individual development in Egypt, or,
more likely still, that I had fallen into a profoundly reminiscent
mood, I am unable to state; but certainly, as the Nile boat approached
nearer to him “who sleeps in Philæ,” something of the Egyptian feeling
for Osiris, the god to whom was attributed the romance of a hero
and the character of a benefactor and redeemer, came to me through
long-forgotten sensations. Typifying the annual “great affliction,”
Osiris, who had submitted himself to death, mutilation, and burial in
the earth, returned each Spring when the wheat and barley sprouted,
bringing not only a promise of bread for the body but healing and
comfort for the torn mind; an intimation that death itself is
beneficent and may be calmly accepted as a necessary part of an ordered
universe.
Day after day, seeing the rebirth of the newly planted fields on the
banks of the Nile, and touched by a fresh sense of the enduring miracle
of Spring with its inevitable analogy to the vicissitudes of human
experience, one dimly comprehends how the pathetic legends of Osiris,
by providing the Egyptian with an example for his own destiny, not only
opened the way for a new meaning in life, but also gradually vanquished
the terrors of death.
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