“I’d never thought of such a thing, you see. When the scholastic agencies sent me circulars after the Tripos, I tore them up at once.” “There are the holidays,” said Agnes. “You would have three months in the year to yourself, and you could do your writing then.” “But who’ll read what I’ve written?” and he told her about the editor of the “Holborn.” She became extremely grave. At the bottom of her heart she had always mistrusted the little stories, and now people who knew agreed with her. How could Rickie, or any one, make a living by pretending that Greek gods were alive, or that young ladies could vanish into trees? A sparkling society tale, full of verve and pathos, would have been another thing, and the editor might have been convinced by it. “But what does he _mean_?” Rickie was saying. “What does he _mean_ by life?” “I know what he means, but I can’t exactly explain. You ought to see life, Rickie. I think he’s right there. And Mr. Tilliard was right when he said one oughtn’t to be academic.” He stood in the twilight that fell from the window, she in the twilight of the gas. “I wonder what Ansell would say,” he murmured. “Oh, poor Mr. Ansell!” He was somewhat surprised. Why was Ansell poor? It was the first time the epithet had been applied to him. “But to change the conversation,” said Agnes. “If we did marry, we might get to Italy at Easter and escape this horrible fog.” “Yes. Perhaps there—” Perhaps life would be there. He thought of Renan, who declares that on the Acropolis at Athens beauty and wisdom do exist, really exist, as external powers. He did not aspire to beauty or wisdom, but he prayed to be delivered from the shadow of unreality that had begun to darken the world. For it was as if some power had pronounced against him—as if, by some heedless action, he had offended an Olympian god. Like many another, he wondered whether the god might be appeased by work—hard uncongenial work. Perhaps he had not worked hard enough, or had enjoyed his work too much, and for that reason the shadow was falling. “—And above all, a schoolmaster has wonderful opportunities for doing good; one mustn’t forget that.” To do good! For what other reason are we here? Let us give up our refined sensations, and our comforts, and our art, if thereby we can make other people happier and better. The woman he loved had urged him to do good! With a vehemence that surprised her, he exclaimed, “I’ll do it.” “Think it over,” she cautioned, though she was greatly pleased. “No; I think over things too much.”