Autobiographical fiction; England -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction; Teachers -- Fiction
What was amiss with Herbert? He had known that something was amiss,
and had entered into partnership with open eyes. The man was kind and
unselfish; more than that he was truly charitable, and it was a real
pleasure to him to give—pleasure to others. Certainly he might talk
too much about it afterwards; but it was the doing, not the talking,
that he really valued, and benefactors of this sort are not too
common. He was, moreover, diligent and conscientious: his heart was in
his work, and his adherence to the Church of England no mere matter
of form. He was capable of affection: he was usually courteous and
tolerant. Then what was amiss? Why, in spite of all these qualities,
should Rickie feel that there was something wrong with him—nay, that
he was wrong as a whole, and that if the Spirit of Humanity should ever
hold a judgment he would assuredly be classed among the goats? The
answer at first sight appeared a graceless one—it was that Herbert was
stupid. Not stupid in the ordinary sense—he had a business-like brain,
and acquired knowledge easily—but stupid in the important sense: his
whole life was coloured by a contempt of the intellect. That he had
a tolerable intellect of his own was not the point: it is in what we
value, not in what we have, that the test of us resides. Now, Rickie’s
intellect was not remarkable. He came to his worthier results rather by
imagination and instinct than by logic. An argument confused him, and
he could with difficulty follow it even on paper. But he saw in this
no reason for satisfaction, and tried to make such use of his brain
as he could, just as a weak athlete might lovingly exercise his body.
Like a weak athlete, too, he loved to watch the exploits, or rather the
efforts, of others—their efforts not so much to acquire knowledge as
to dispel a little of the darkness by which we and all our acquisitions
are surrounded. Cambridge had taught him this, and he knew, if for no
other reason, that his time there had not been in vain. And Herbert’s
contempt for such efforts revolted him. He saw that for all his fine
talk about a spiritual life he had but one test for things—success:
success for the body in this life or for the soul in the life to come.
And for this reason Humanity, and perhaps such other tribunals as there
may be, would assuredly reject him.
XVIII
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