Autobiographical fiction; England -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction; Teachers -- Fiction
“About hating dead people?”
“Yes—”
“Did you hate your mother?” asked Widdrington.
Rickie turned crimson.
“I don’t see Hornblower’s such a rotter,” remarked the other man, whose
name was James.
“James, you are diplomatic,” said Ansell. “You are trying to tide over
an awkward moment. You can go.”
Widdrington was crimson too. In his wish to be sprightly he had used
words without thinking of their meanings. Suddenly he realized that
“father” and “mother” really meant father and mother—people whom he
had himself at home. He was very uncomfortable, and thought Rickie had
been rather queer. He too tried to revert to Hornblower, but Ansell
would not let him. The sun came out, and struck on the white ramparts
of the dell. Rickie looked straight at it. Then he said abruptly—
“I think I want to talk.”
“I think you do,” replied Ansell.
“Shouldn’t I be rather a fool if I went through Cambridge without
talking? It’s said never to come so easy again. All the people are dead
too. I can’t see why I shouldn’t tell you most things about my birth
and parentage and education.”
“Talk away. If you bore us, we have books.”
With this invitation Rickie began to relate his history. The reader who
has no book will be obliged to listen to it.
• • • • •
Some people spend their lives in a suburb, and not for any urgent
reason. This had been the fate of Rickie. He had opened his eyes
to filmy heavens, and taken his first walk on asphalt. He had seen
civilization as a row of semi-detached villas, and society as a state
in which men do not know the men who live next door. He had himself
become part of the grey monotony that surrounds all cities. There was
no necessity for this—it was only rather convenient to his father.
Mr. Elliot was a barrister. In appearance he resembled his son, being
weakly and lame, with hollow little cheeks, a broad white band of
forehead, and stiff impoverished hair. His voice, which he did not
transmit, was very suave, with a fine command of cynical intonation. By
altering it ever so little he could make people wince, especially if
they were simple or poor. Nor did he transmit his eyes. Their peculiar
flatness, as if the soul looked through dirty window-panes, the
unkindness of them, the cowardice, the fear in them, were to trouble
the world no longer.
He married a girl whose voice was beautiful. There was no caress
in it yet all who heard it were soothed, as though the world held
some unexpected blessing. She called to her dogs one night over
invisible waters, and he, a tourist up on the bridge, thought “that
is extraordinarily adequate.” In time he discovered that her figure,
face, and thoughts were adequate also, and as she was not impossible
socially, he married her. “I have taken a plunge,” he told his family.
The family, hostile at first, had not a word to say when the woman was
introduced to them; and his sister declared that the plunge had been
taken from the opposite bank.
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